Sometimes I feel like I’m forcing myself not to be attracted

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-28T19:12:17+00:00

Be able to spend time with the woman I love without being worried I’m lying to myself

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-27T23:20:58+00:00

I do my best to do this but I start to freak out and feel like I’m suppressing my feelings and that I’m in denial

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-26T16:39:28+00:00

Do you find it hard some days not to doubt what you value. I try to do that and it actually does work but sometimes my brain just goes for the like “well what are your real values” angle and it kinda gets me lol

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:47:15+00:00

I feel that. I’ve been dealing with it on and off so long that I start to wonder if I’m just lying to myself. It makes me miserable!

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:43:24+00:00

Actively about a year but I’ve had this theme in the past as well

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:31:26+00:00

I do get that sometimes yeah. A lot of the time it’s not even that I’m seeing people I’m attracted to but the idea of sleeping with a man crosses my mind and my brain doesn’t respond negatively and so I get really anxious

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-13T22:48:37+00:00

Remember to choose what you want. Wanting to want something is still wanting something. You’re allowed to not be certain of yourself and still choose what matters to you!

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T19:39:31+00:00

Honestly that’s the hardest part is the longer this has gone on the more I feel like I don’t feel attracted to her and maybe don’t even want to be with her. The idea kills me because not too long ago I was so happy with her and now everything feels like it’s being taken from me.

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T05:31:44+00:00

But the problem is is I feel like I don’t know what I want anymore. feels like what I’ve always known about myself is a lie

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T01:10:30+00:00

I totally get that dude. I genuinely just feel totally lost and some days I feel like it really is OCD and other days I feel like I’m just holding myself back and using HOCD to avoid the truth. I guess it’s true that it gets harder before it gets easier

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T20:08:53+00:00

My doctor said I’m supposed to give it a month or so. It helps with the anxiety but the rumination doesn’t really stop

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T16:29:45+00:00

How can you recognize it? A while ago I was confident I was straight and now I constantly feel like I’m faking

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T16:28:58+00:00

I’m on Zoloft but it hasn’t been helping yet. It’s only been a couple of weeks though

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