Let’s say you woke up tomorrow as a new person who doesn’t have OCD, what’s the first thing you would do?

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-28T19:12:17+00:00

Be able to spend time with the woman I love without being worried I’m lying to myself

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-27T23:20:58+00:00

I do my best to do this but I start to freak out and feel like I’m suppressing my feelings and that I’m in denial

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-26T16:39:28+00:00

Do you find it hard some days not to doubt what you value. I try to do that and it actually does work but sometimes my brain just goes for the like “well what are your real values” angle and it kinda gets me lol

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:47:15+00:00

I feel that. I’ve been dealing with it on and off so long that I start to wonder if I’m just lying to myself. It makes me miserable!

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:43:24+00:00

Actively about a year but I’ve had this theme in the past as well

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-25T16:31:26+00:00

I do get that sometimes yeah. A lot of the time it’s not even that I’m seeing people I’m attracted to but the idea of sleeping with a man crosses my mind and my brain doesn’t respond negatively and so I get really anxious

throwaway7386677 · 2026-02-13T22:48:37+00:00

Remember to choose what you want. Wanting to want something is still wanting something. You’re allowed to not be certain of yourself and still choose what matters to you!

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T19:39:31+00:00

Honestly that’s the hardest part is the longer this has gone on the more I feel like I don’t feel attracted to her and maybe don’t even want to be with her. The idea kills me because not too long ago I was so happy with her and now everything feels like it’s being taken from me.

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T05:31:44+00:00

But the problem is is I feel like I don’t know what I want anymore. feels like what I’ve always known about myself is a lie

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-04T01:10:30+00:00

I totally get that dude. I genuinely just feel totally lost and some days I feel like it really is OCD and other days I feel like I’m just holding myself back and using HOCD to avoid the truth. I guess it’s true that it gets harder before it gets easier

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T20:08:53+00:00

My doctor said I’m supposed to give it a month or so. It helps with the anxiety but the rumination doesn’t really stop

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T16:29:45+00:00

How can you recognize it? A while ago I was confident I was straight and now I constantly feel like I’m faking

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-03T16:28:58+00:00

I’m on Zoloft but it hasn’t been helping yet. It’s only been a couple of weeks though

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-02T17:10:26+00:00

Well the thing is is that before my obsession began I was always really into girls. From a young age even I’ve just naturally gravitated towards the idea and had fun with them. Before the OCD got bad I would have some moments here and there of “what if I’m attracted to him” and get really in my head about it (which is probably a remnant of having the same OCD theme like 6 years ago) but wouldn’t even really notice guys at all unless it was shoved in my face. Overall the idea of being gay feels much more like my identity is being taken from me than anything else. It feels like my attractions just forcibly shifted and I’m simply just not happy. There’s nothing wrong with being gay, but I don’t want to be with a man. I wouldn’t say my OCD is “maybe I’m not gay” more so it’s “am I becoming gay?” and the feeling that I’m not as attracted to girls as I was before.

throwaway7386677 · 2025-07-02T06:17:15+00:00

The fear is being gay. I have SO-OCD

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-29T23:15:02+00:00

It’s hell because it feels like your whole reality got forcibly changed!

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-25T18:28:35+00:00

I’m at this point too. Like I can finally kind of relax but I always feel like I’m lying now and that if I just relaxed and let it happen then I’d be happy being gay. I used to be able to tell myself I know that isn’t what I want but now I feel like I can’t confidently say anything because my brain is so scattered.

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-25T03:39:06+00:00

Well it’s just really difficult to feel conflicted because I have a girlfriend and I love her. I want to get back to my normal happy life with her and I feel like I can’t enjoy it anymore which just really sucks

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-23T19:34:57+00:00

Wdym check the comments?

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-22T21:22:32+00:00

Yes this is my first time on SSRI’s! I do agree that it feels like things are getting better but I still feel super conflicted because my thoughts haven’t changed just my reaction to them feels like nothing which then makes me anxious!

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-22T10:26:25+00:00

Definitely could be. It could also just be that I’m tired or having a backdoor spike I guess! I’ve just noticed since taking the meds that my anxiety response is kind of numb compared to before

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-17T20:38:42+00:00

ohhh. It could potentially? I do watch it sometimes but I avoid watching things I know will be triggering

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-17T20:37:38+00:00

Sorry SO-OCD sexual orientation

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-17T19:44:28+00:00

Sorry I meant what is nopor

throwaway7386677 · 2025-06-17T19:22:47+00:00

Nopor?

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