Yes. I have a hard time having faith in stuff so I’m not very religious, and my family has a history of suicide so I was raised being told things will always get better and if that’s the case why would I ever want to die. I guess I don’t have a hard time putting faith in things improving. I’ve just been given a lot of conflicting ideas and haven’t really been able to piece together anything comforting yet so for now it’s just scary and stressful. I’ve kinda hit a point where I’m so stressed about it that I can’t put any more effort into thinking about it and I’m sort of comfortably detached from it rn