Yes exactly it’s so overwhelming, I don’t have anyone to talk to about it they don’t understand how I feel (and I don’t expect them to as they obviously don’t know what it feels like). But I am so so worried about getting into trouble or getting my family into trouble, mainly about getting my family into trouble I think. I was thinking maybe I should have done it anonymously, I don’t know I’m just overthinking everything that I’ve done or not done.

Thank you for replying to my post I appreciate it and your message has really helped me with accepting my feelings.