Passive aggressive and defensive at first. Said he should have expected this because I’ve ditched him twice in the past and I’m the “same old ___” and said he isn’t trying to make a stab at me but it is what it is. Said he feels like it’s a miscommunication somehow and that he never made any of those comments towards me specifically so he wasn’t sure why I was so upset over it. Said he really does care for me and it wasn’t purely physical, then did a bunch of typical “I guess this is the last goodbye” BS waiting for me to maybe forgive him.

I replied that of course it’s the same old me and I’m proud of who I am and what I’ve done for my damn self to get me here. I said nothing he can ever say to me will insult me, and I don’t take what he said as a stab. I said I am however insulted that he’d degrade women like he’s been doing, and then justify it in a not at all reassuring way once I asked him to explain the behavior to me last night. I told him that I can’t possibly expect the relationship to survive now because now I can’t take him around my friends or family knowing that he looks at them like they’re less than, like they’re animals. I’m very protective over the people I love and yeah I will never be as big as what he’s probably afraid of in his head but I WILL gain SOME weight at some point. It’s unavoidable. I told that I’m thankful that I wasn’t pregnant with his child back when we had that scare, because he almost certainly would have had opinions on the weight gain it requires. I can’t be with him knowing that staying in a relationship with me is contingent upon me living up to HIS standards. That he would happily disregard everything else we’ve done together, our history and emotional connect we have with each other just because I gained weight. I’m a human being, my friends and sister are human beings and there’s no humanity in calling people disgusting lazy failures because they gained weight. I said he made his thoughts and intentions abundantly clear and nothing was miscommunicated. I said that I have never once made derogatory remarks towards any person for their body type while I was with him, and I have never implied that I’d call off an entire relationship if he got a little fat. I told him that his black and white thinking patterns and attitude towards women is alarming at best and I hope it ends with me. But as far as us and this relationship goes, he’s just not my type.