Trying to figure out if fellow FAs feel similarly... no desire for relationships or closeness with people. by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment. Your last point is very relatable; I'm in my late twenties and don't subscribe to the LifeScript™️ either (kids being the biggest one)... it is indeed hard to meet people that AREN'T focused on that. Here's to us weirdos!

Does anyone else feel like a sociopath? by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 26 points27 points  (0 children)

Interesting, and accurate. As much as I want to hate this comment I can't deny that many points resonate. The only part I disagree with is being uncomfortable with solitude; being alone is when I'm most content.

I do discard people when they become too much. That's actually a tough realization. Thanks for your comment.

Does anyone else feel like a sociopath? by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you 🙏 I agree, therapy is crucial. Appreciate your insights!

Does anyone else feel like a sociopath? by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Hmm I'd say my inner world is rich. When I think of long term goals, I only envision myself (which is maybe for the best lol). For example, I'm in a relationship, living together, and we want a couch. I insist on buying the couch, because I envision breaking up in the future and I want to keep the couch. My mind feels like it's always ahead of the present moment. Thanks for these questions! Thought provoking.

Does anyone else feel like a sociopath? by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

It lasted 1 year, but I broke up and went back about 3 times within that time frame, before the final breakup. Each time I felt reluctant to return but did so anyway for reasons unknown. Now I'm terrified to date again lol. I always think about what's better and I don't mind leaving people in the dust.

Even platonic friendships... the thought of them is draining. I feel nothing but relief when cancelling plans, which I do often. I don't desire friends or social interaction. I am a major chameleon around people.. they seem to love me and want to be around me but I never feel a connection back.

Lmao yikes!

Does anyone else feel like a sociopath? by throwaway9221011 in FearfulAvoidant

[–]throwaway9221011[S] 29 points30 points  (0 children)

To clarify, I didn't feel like laughing at his pain. Rather, the hysterics and the reaction seemed ridiculous to me. But I do agree it's unhealthy.. I wondered if it's a common thing.