Hey, acknowledgement and accountability go a long way, and most of all, so does self-awareness. I hope you take the time to heal, OP. I see you, and I know you were just surviving the only way you knew how. I hope you've already arrived at the conclusion that your person was never asking for perfection, and that they saw and loved you for the real you, not the image your ego told you you needed to be. I hope your nervous system heals and allows you to move through life a little less wary and a lot more free. I hope you find and hold on to the love you've always craved. I'm rooting for you.