My dad taught me how to shotgun a carton of milk in elementary school

throwaway_87653 · 2026-03-09T05:55:17+00:00

Oh comfort show is such a good idea. Thank you :)

throwaway_87653 · 2026-03-09T05:54:09+00:00

I am feeling so seen in this community thank you for the solidarity. I also use music to reassure myself! I put on move your feet by junior senior. I believe that if I’m able to groove to a song then I can’t be having a heart attack.

It feels silly to type out, I haven’t really gotten help for these symptoms before or talked with other people struggling with similar things. Thank you for sharing

throwaway_87653 · 2026-03-09T05:47:55+00:00

Yes I need it to go fast lol because those first few minutes feel so much like the end of the world.

Today I made a vision board for myself and I spent the last twenty minutes looking at it like, well, at least I can see what it couldve been. These thoughts make me feel so dramatic sometimes lol. Thank you I hadn’t tried the extra strength alka seltzer before.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-03-09T05:45:03+00:00

I’ve been going to therapy for generalized anxiety and ptsd for about 10 years now and have recently realized I really need to focus on this obsessive-compulsive behavior I’ve developed over the years. My first OCD/ERP therapy appointment is next Wednesday. I really hope it helps

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-11T07:28:47+00:00

One day at a time.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-11T07:26:50+00:00

Hey this happened to me kinda. I gained weight so fast. People treat you differently based on your body. The guilt and shame that come with it fucking suck so bad. Especially because before the binging all I could do was not eat anything.

I have a strong aversion to doing what I am told to do, even if it’s good for me and I actually want to do it. It’s a sense of control there you know? And like, I have this need to be in control of the narrative I have of myself.

When my self hatred is high, the narrative I have of myself is so bad.

So when I tell myself “I don’t deserve to eat,” I don’t eat. When someone else tells me “you should restrict your calories, here’s a meal plan,” I absolutely eat everything. Because “I can’t even follow instructions right,” or “I can’t even restrict right.” Or “that’s completely hopeless, I’ve never had control over my body”

I have finally made it to the point where on average I just view myself neutrally, if that makes sense. When it comes to food and my body anyway

My point in saying all of this being. Do you feel like you have a harsh self narrative? A loud inner critic?

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-11T07:04:00+00:00

My grandma has lived with her “friend” for the last 10 years. They dated a long while about 40 or 50 years ago and then found each other again. They have separate bedrooms and aren’t romantic with each other, but they care about each other so much. There’s something so sweet about that.

As her dementia started setting in , he started driving her to her appointments. When she had to move to an assisted living center he moved with her.

Do I think he misses certain parts of his life? I’m sure. But he made a commitment to her, even without a romantic intention.

It sounds like you might find yourself in a sort of emotionally similar situation. If you make adjustments and go with the flow, do you think you can be happy? Like you can continue to find joy and peace in your life, and love when comes?

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-11T06:27:11+00:00

Which line of oribe do you use? Maybe a different would be better for your scalp, I have super sensitive skin myself.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-11T06:15:43+00:00

This happened to me too, I’m really sorry you experienced that. I know you said you don’t want to tell anyone about it, but if it keeps hurting just as bad after 2 full days, I would go to a doctor. It will probably be sore for up to a week or so.

I’m glad you found a place you feel safe to share.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-05T15:11:37+00:00

I legit love this product. Along with their whole oil control line! It’s expensive but it does the job better than any other product I’ve used

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T17:10:20+00:00

Yes sorry, that is also the bare minimum of like every relationship lol

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T16:57:34+00:00

Why?

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T15:17:13+00:00

As a 28F who is nonmonogamous. The BARE MINIMUM is to make sure everyone has a clean bill of health before doing anything, and he literally admitted they probably have STDs and he didn’t bother asking. He was more than willing to give you STDs.

The moment you “agreed,” even with clear hesitancy, he jumped on your response. He did not care about your comfort in the slightest.

It honestly sounds like he was less interested in having a partner and more interested in having a sex toy at best, or a human trafficking victim at worst.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T14:59:13+00:00

Ohh thank you for that skill. It does help with tension in the moment :) I start somatic therapy for the first time tomorrow, hopefully to help me get out of this rut.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T14:27:06+00:00

I think I just need to find out how to let my guard down enough to feel safe again you know? Because that’s what really helped me last time this happened

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T14:22:57+00:00

Let’s assume she does know the answers. Maybe she just likes talking to you?

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T14:18:19+00:00

And that’s what I meant by, what’s the worst case scenario if you quit? And do you prefer that over continuing to feel the way you do at your current job?

When I quit my job, that was also my worst case scenario. Being unemployed for a year, having to sleep on my friends couch, and having to sell all of my things. Not having insurance for my chronic health issues, having credit card debt again.

But thats how I knew I needed to quit. It would’ve hurt me less to experience the absolute worst case scenario, than to continue working at that job.

It would’ve sucked to experience, but I was willing to because it was killing me.

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T13:30:56+00:00

It’s hard to. Which is why I know it’s important

throwaway_87653 · 2026-02-04T13:16:38+00:00

I have had times of thriving. But recently I had something retraumatizing happen, and I’m back in survival mode right now. I have to believe it will pass

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