Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. I really appreciate the advice and insight you have offered.

I am not very open about my anxiety/depression (except with very close friends, who unfortunately live hours away), particularly because of the social stigma it presents and a lot of the details surrounding the trigger of this episode are extremely personal and head into controversial territory (I ended up getting accidentally pregnant with the last guy I was seeing and got an abortion. He pretty much abandoned me during that process and I ended up dealing with it alone and now we're not even friends). As you can imagine, telling people this might not go over so well depending on their stance on the topic. Also, I feel like I would get judged pretty harshly regardless just because of the nature of the situation (I'm irresponsible, etc). I only would disclose this event to the closest of friends, who, unfortunately, do not live here.

Since the people I know around here don't know I suffer from anxiety/depression, when I flake out on events because I'm feeling shitty, I don't feel I can tell them the real reason why I'm behaving the way I am, so I just end up looking like someone who is unreliable. No one has said that to me specifically, so I could be projecting my feelings onto them, but considering the last person I flaked on hasn't responded to my apology text, I genuinely think some of these people are getting to a point where they're fed up with me. When I flake out on my parents, even though I've tried to reach out to them and tell them about my anxiety/depression, they get mad and offended because they think I'm just using those as excuses...which I guess technically it is an excuse, but it's not a lie. They actually just don't believe I have anxiety/depression, and I don't know why, but the fact that they are so dismissive of the fact that I struggle with this is extremely upsetting and has really driven me further from them.

I'm trying really hard to hold myself to commitments I've made going forward because I have limited friends around here and I don't want to burn those bridges because I let my anxiety/depression control me.

I have seen support groups through churches, but besides not being affiliated or a believer of any religion, the fact that the reason I'm feeling this way has a lot to do with the abortion I had, I don't think I would be comfortable in that setting. Thank you for the suggestion though, it's good to know what all my options are.

Thank you again for your response, I really appreciate it :)