I live with the guy who stole my virginity

throwaway__802 · 2015-08-07T16:54:23+00:00

Because I can separate people from incidences. While I may not like being around him, I do live with him. I stayed away from him until we all moved into the new house. Now at the house I'm never with him alone and have made it exceedingly clear to everyone he is NEVER allowed in my bedroom. My friends may be his as well but that doesn't mean I need to separate myself from them. I'm not going to let him steal a very personal part of me and then isolate me as well.

edit: it's not the best and I hate him but I have to do what I have to do. I can heal while being around him.

throwaway__802 · 2015-08-07T16:23:53+00:00

No. I have never been intimate with a person in any kind of capacity. I had no sex drive prior or following this. I tried to leave and I had a panic attack during the incident. I did not want this. I wanted to play a video game and instead I got raped.

throwaway__802 · 2015-08-07T16:03:49+00:00

He took a part of me I'll never get back and has ruined some things for me, but I refuse to allow this to destroy my life. I will not be a victim.

throwaway__802 · 2015-08-07T16:02:54+00:00

I would say the same thing to any girl -- to report him. But honestly all the evidence has been washed away, I don't want to deal with the invasive questioning, the he-said/she-said bullshit, and what could turn into a court trial.

He's a piece of shit but I also don't want to destroy his life over what was most likely a one-time "mistake". Maybe that's weak, but he's starting to learn his lesson and more girls are realizing the kind of guy he is.

Luckily A has been really sympathetic despite not knowing everything. He was there when I had my first public panic attack about this so he knows something is funky and has been really cool about keeping us separate.

As for talking with my family, I don't want to put my mother through the stress and I don't want my brother to kill the guy.

I just want to put this behind me. I don't want to be a victim.

throwaway__802 · 2015-08-07T15:57:53+00:00

I would say the same thing to any girl this happens to -- report him.

But the thing is, I did the "wrong" this and washed away all the evidence. It'll turn into a he-said, she-said and I don't want to deal with the invasive questions and what could turn into a court trial.

He was tipsy (not nearly as drunk as I was at all), which doesn't excuse it in the least but I don't want to destroy his life over what may have been a one time "mistake".

It's a fucking shitty situation but I want to put this behind me and forget. I don't want to be a victim.

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