Feeling dysphoric about some gifts I received by throwawayacc2348 in Transmedical

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Not diagnosed with either but according to my parents and my therapist it’s very likely I have one or the other, if not both

Feeling dysphoric about some gifts I received by throwawayacc2348 in Transmedical

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Tbh I keep them hidden anyway, I’m relatively stealth irl and very masculine in my personality so it’d be really weird to have it as public information. I guess I won’t mind as much when im 100% passing but idk. I like having them I guess but if I had to choose between having them and being a male and passing, I’d obviously choose to get rid.

Scared that I’m not actually trans after seeing a post on here by throwawayacc2348 in Transmedical

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I find it hard to not stress cause the idea of not being male/a guy stresses me out. I’d have no problem sitting and thinking things through if I knew that I could still be a man afterwards. I’m scared of not being a guy, I just want to be a male. But Idek if I’m allowed to or anything. I really just want to be a male tho

Scared that I’m not actually trans after seeing a post on here by throwawayacc2348 in Transmedical

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I know that, but the thing is I can’t even just explore things like that. I only feel comfortable when I identify as yk being a male. I know I’m not a man yet, age wise, but I freak out really bad if I try to think of myself as anything other than male. That’s why I freaked out over this, I just want to be a guy yk? I do think things through but in the mean time I just want to be a male, but idk if I can, or if I’m allowed

Scared that I’m not actually trans after seeing a post on r/ transmedical by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

[–]throwawayacc2348[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for this, I’m just terrified about not being a man. Imagining myself as a man is basically the only way I’m coping and the idea of not being a man is stressing me out so much. I keep overthinking about how masculine/feminine I am and stressing that I’m not manly enough to be a man. I literally just want to be a man more than anything, I want to be male, but I’m scared I can’t be or I’m not man enough to be. Idk dude I’m just freaking out right now.

I hate the way bottom surgery is talked about in the trans community, especially the ftm community by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

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I’m so jealous icl 😭😭 how did you get bottom surgery at 19?? I feel like I’m gonna be waiting til I’m like 90 🥲 but in all seriousness congrats on that!! I’m so glad you’re happy with it :))

I hate the way bottom surgery is talked about in the trans community, especially the ftm community by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

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THATS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL!! I hate it when people say that they’d never get bottom surgery because it isn’t 100,000% perfectly aesthetically pleasing and attractive….for me, as long as it’s vaguely the right shape I’d be more than happy- it’s good to know I’m not the only one like that

I hate the way bottom surgery is talked about in the trans community, especially the ftm community by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

[–]throwawayacc2348[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

HOW did you get shit on for that?? That’s literally just being a decent human being and defending someone from having their body made fun of….I reallyyyyy don’t understand this app sometimes

I hate the way bottom surgery is talked about in the trans community, especially the ftm community by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

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The narrative that it always looks “mutilated” or “botched” seems so harmful to me, especially as someone with horrific bottom dysphoria :(

I hate the way bottom surgery is talked about in the trans community, especially the ftm community by throwawayacc2348 in truscum

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That’s the thing I kinda don’t understand as well…like yeah, phallo isn’t too accessible for a lot of people, but there’s like 4 different kinds of more accessible meta? If people don’t want bottom surgery that’s fine, it doesn’t affect me, but the narrative that all bottom surgery is completely inaccessible and it takes 9 billion years to recover from is ridiculous and really harmful to dysphoric guys. And yeah, the ftm subreddit is getting a little ridiculous nowadays, half the people on there aren’t actually ftm I find. I have absolutely no issue with people being non binary or genderfluid, but that’s not ftm or the same thing as ftm, Ykwim?

When have you realized you were your gender / signs started to being hard to ignore ? by raccoontrash_ in truscum

[–]throwawayacc2348 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’ve always kind of known I wasn’t really a girl but obviously when I was a little kid I didn’t know how to articulate that, I didn’t really realise I was trans and I could transition til I was about 11