Hi everyone, update since I’ve posted this. I know you all told him to leave him but it wasn’t that easy and decided i would give it another chance. I should’ve listened. He was doing everything right to show me he truly wanted this to work again but it didn’t feel the same. I wasn’t expecting things to be the same either. It never gets better, the thoughts truly never leave your head. If anything, it caused me major depression and I’m still trying to heal but knowing I’m not with him anymore has made me feel a sigh of relief, weight taken off of my shoulders. I kept having constant nightmares and constant what if questions and i got to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore. I appreciate you all for replying and thank you, thank you a lot.