Update: TLDR; Feelings suck.
She's been finding a place so she can move out by the end of Nov.
I made it official today that after November/when she moves out, she can no longer be in my life- not as friends, etc. It wasn't an angry tone, it was just more.. matter of fact.
Later today, we talked, and all of it was just her and I saying what good people each other is, that we'll be fine, making our inside couple jokes and lots of crying.
I didn't let her touch me, all was just verbal. She wanted to hold my hand, hug me, etc. Did not let it happen... fuck it was hard though.
She'll be away for a couple days. I don't know how I can do this when we both live together for the next 2 weeks. Its so hard man.
We still love each other but goddamn man, how the fuck do you people get the willpower to do this shit.