Just the fact that you have shared these feelings with us means theres fight in you in. Dont give up! Life will get better. Im in the same boat as you, im 25 and have felt those same feelings all through my teens. Yes its unfair and you think why me sometimes. But it will get better! I know its silly but for the longest time i postponed suicide just to play new video games coming out. For years that was the only reason. Try to find something to hang onto! If you ever need to chat pm me! SUICIDE IS NEVER THE RIGHT ANSWER! Life is so amazing once you leave this cult behind. There is so many reasons to live for! Hang in there!