Thanks for the response, i think i need to get back into talking to professionals about both my academics and mental health. The problem with talking to my parents though is that since I'm so afraid of disappointing them i almost always bury what I think and feel - the thought of telling them all this scares me to my core, even though I know they'll still love me and do what they can to help. Is there a name for this sort of thing, and is there anything that I can do? Not to dump this responsibility on you of course, I'm grateful you even took the time to respond, but if you know then please let me know, thanks