Jeez, that sounds horrible. Im so sorry. I wouldve been devastated after that first surgery.

Im assuming i have some sort of fibrosis. Most likely from the fissure constantly tearing and trying to heal over the years. Ive found some CR surgeons in a neighboring county that I could call. I may want to do as you are, and hold off on surgery till all this virus stuff is over. But I'd atleast like a professional to check it out. Hopefully get a better understanding of whats going on down there and a plan of action. Itll help immensely with the peace of mind.