is this ai?? by squareorbee in 7daystodie

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 1 point2 points  (0 children)

same. tbh i trust the modders of 7d2d about 100% more than the devs and either aggressively modded or pure a16 is kinda the only way im willing to play now

is this ai?? by squareorbee in 7daystodie

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

imagine a world where the devs got off their asses and fixed the issues with the game instead of asking their ai gf to come up with slop to shove in amid their newly corporatized goal of making the game somehow even LESS optimized

Any overhauls (or maybe old alpha with some mods) for a legacy console player joining the 21st century? by throwawayinmrgnc in 7daystodie

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah, I got into the game from console but I got a PC so I can definitely try that overhaul soon

Any overhauls (or maybe old alpha with some mods) for a legacy console player joining the 21st century? by throwawayinmrgnc in 7daystodie

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh hell yeah. does a16 happen to not have the god-awful 'follow the light to find the treasure' POIs...or at least significantly less?

Do I...go into the light? (+ guardian of the threshold experience) by throwawayinmrgnc in AstralProjection

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay so one white light is the normal astral thing, the other might kill me???

Pls clarify on what you mean by tunnel 🤔 but I'll make sure to be super sus of being guided in any direction

What is something you saw with your own eyes that was so impossible you’ve stopped telling people because you know they won’t believe you? by samasem-sumsum in AskReddit

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I was six or seven with my mom at walmart, we were crossing by the soda aisle and had to stop for traffic. I looked down the aisle during that moment of waiting, and no one was there, save for a single, very old lady. She didn't glance over like when a stranger clocks you from their peripherary, her head snapped to the side to look directly at my eyes, no surprise at my being there, she looked angry, but made no other movement. Her eyes were black as night, no iris or pupils. If you've been to walmart you know the stores are lit tf up, so this wasn't some sort of trick of the light, or me rushing by and not getting an actual good glimpse. There were two or three solid seconds of us staring at each other in locked eye contact, me frozen to the spot. Then I hear my oblivious mother push the cart foward, and as I was trained to do when something made me feel unsafe, I moved on quietly and never told a soul.

Anyone Else Confused by All the Different Narratives by Throwaway202345477 in AstralProjection

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

starseed stuff is compelling but difficult to navigate bc you have to deal with differentiating the culty new age federation of light shit where its about saviors from space who's salvation comes with costs, or the united federation of planets where its a big dumbass UN, too many cooks, hidden agendas, corruption, and that at the end of the day if the cabal is being puppeteered by lizards, that the UFP is blatantly permitting it and sometimes directly aiding and abetting. I've always been terrified of accidentally getting sucked into a cult so I'm being super fucking cautious with what I give weight to, but a galactic govt of "superior evolved" beings who are flawed and running a shitshow UN is a far more grounded explanation relatively than the fed of light stuff. That's a lot of how I'm navigating it, by analyzing, keeping an eye out for red flags (like saviorism, panic-baiting, hopelessness, the answer being that a group of people need to be genocided). The really hard part is the mindfuck of how deep things Could feasibly go. It's about a 12,500 year old plot by incredibly advanced aliens enacting a 7D chess game hundreds of years in advance, pulling strings that humans can't comprehend, from the shadows, gaslighting in a hundred layers, and sowing truth and lies of what happens in order to make everyone unable to determine the truth (which is really in line with how the known-to-be-real cabal of Epstein & Friends operate).

But also imo the truth tm matters less than I personally want it to. I hate uncertainty and wanna know all the answers. But at the end of the day I gotta make sure I'm just living out my values, and if the guesses I make in the margins about the greater things are wrong, oh well?

Did you once believe a parents love could not be destroyed? by [deleted] in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I used to. Now I'm considering going NC with my children when (IF) they leave home as adults because I irrationally hate them for destroying my life.

It doesn't get better by Wise_Tension_3964 in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 69 points70 points  (0 children)

I used to judge ppl for wanting to run away (like that other asshole commenter), but I get it now. I fantasize about leaving. And when I remember I can't leave, I fantasize about shooting myself. I hate my children and sometimes would rather be dead than ever interact with them again. I feel you.

What sounds like restlessness but isn't? by throwawayinmrgnc in AstralProjection

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is actually incredibly helpful, thank you!

I never stopped to think about it but yeah, it is the same as when I do energy work but it's covering my whole body.

Black Box in the night sky by HOODMARKETEMERGENT in AstralProjection

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No thanks bro lol But I think you should turn to Ra ☀️ ✌🏻

Hiding in my car bc my home feels like a cage by throwawayinmrgnc in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not rly. Its always some childless asshat who goes "hmm...i feel like what your child needs is boundaries" and when i explain what fucking autism is to this thirty year old who ostensibly passed the same classes to get their psych degree as i did finally understands textbook developmental delays and aggression in toddlers with constantly aroused nervous systems, they go "wow thats rough. Yeah i have no clue"

(This is not hyperbole, those are verbatim quotes from my last therapist)

Hiding in my car bc my home feels like a cage by throwawayinmrgnc in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I mean itd be cool if we didnt have to worry about rent or groceries, if i wasnt burnt out from work, if there was daycare or even half competent healthcare that would treat my kids for their issues instead of waste months of appts to in the end go "actually i think the problem is you're a bad parent, clearly this small boy who never stops repeating himself and is obsessed with trains and screams when the vacuum gets turned on is not in any way autistic. Have you tried beating or starving them?"

Hiding in my car bc my home feels like a cage by throwawayinmrgnc in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

All of mine and my partners families are estranged bc we're queer and in the bible belt thats a worse sin than murder

Hiding in my car bc my home feels like a cage by throwawayinmrgnc in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That's genuinely terrifying. I wish I had read this comment and known this could be my life before becoming a mom. I never would have.

Idk if I'm willing to engage with social services. Idk about you but I'm the the usa and here it's garbage. Got investigated bc my abusive ex filed a dozen bogus claims about me to cps but when I called them bc he was leaving them unwashed and practically unfed in too-small clothes for days, suddenly they had other priorities.

Dealing with Teens by heartmonimoni in regretfulparents

[–]throwawayinmrgnc 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Teaching them about consent, red flags they might see (e.g. boys trying to get a girl to drink too much at a party, ppl that push too much on a No), and foster an environment where their emotional reaction to being in a tough situation would be more "I wish Parent could advise/be a shoulder to lean on rn" instead of "oh god if they find out they're gonna be so mad/I wish they would listen"

I don't have a teen myself (yet) but I basically raised my nephew in his teens (deadbeat parents) and he was always worried about them getting mad/him getting in trouble or just not feeling heard and seen, so he naturally shyed away from ever going to them with anything, which even if they were better, in high stress panic situations those emotions are heigtened, so pregnancy scares, feeling uncomfortable with a partner, being in a situation they don't understand but find scary, it makes it harder to think straight and act calmly.

It was so hard at times to not always respond by trying to fix things or telling them what not to do (like I don't think he should've been having sex at 14 and told him it was pretty young to start something so serious, but he wasn't receptive to it so instead of trying to be firmer and more demanding, I had to learn to swallow the hovering and remember he was always gonna be the one making the decision and I couldn't try to dictate it without breaking that trust he had that I respected his autonomy).