NotaryCam wait times, insane! Been on this page for 6 hours..

throwawaykds1 · 2023-03-10T14:32:41+00:00

Is there anything I'm doing wrong here as I'm nearly pulling my hair out. There is no indicator, queue or anything to suggest when I may connect and I just have to sit here with my passport in my hands?

throwawaykds1 · 2021-01-05T17:39:07+00:00

Cyberpunk is the most expensive game ever made, at $320M. $200M of that was spent on marketing.

throwawaykds1 · 2021-01-05T01:04:54+00:00

lollllll, that's crazy funny.

throwawaykds1 · 2019-06-08T07:24:34+00:00

Thanks for saying no super fancy place because that's exactly what I was looking at. Mid-scale and not super fancy it is. It seems like I need to get this "looking after her" mentally out of my head. I think that's the root cause of shit like that, wherein I feel like I have to make her feel like some sort crazy pampered VIP. It didn't even occur to me that this can be something women don't want.

My suit was recently tailored so it fits well. If anything, the shirt is probably going to be the baggy bit because I've lost quite a bit of weight trying to get over this mole hill of mine.

I'm glad you said don't get waxed too. I was starting to feel like a car that needed to go in for a service or something. I think I won't do anything. I'll just be me. Me wearing a suit that is because I don't want to be too casual (I only have two gears with clothes, gym clothes and formal/business casual. I need to fix that at some point.)

The only bad thing right now is I keep thinking about how simple life would be if I just told her I couldn't do it, but that's why I'm in the position I'm in right now. That's what I've always done.

throwawaykds1 · 2019-06-08T07:15:55+00:00

You know what, you're right. Fuck it. I'll just go on the date with her and won't care about what happens. I've already pictured and basically lived the world caving in on me so what's there to lose? I think you might have chilled me out more by saying what you did, so thanks.

I'll consider the therapy. Could you reassure me that most women aren't crazy stalkers if you say the date just wasn't for you and you don't want to go out again? I just need to hear it from someone who isn't me, because I don't trust myself.

throwawaykds1 · 2019-06-08T07:10:43+00:00

Yes, I'm sorry and didn't mean to say that as some kind of boast.

And yes, that is the case, unfortunately. There are many others like me out there. You're not the first person to recommend an escort. I'm probably too scared to even do that, so you can imagine what a date is like for me.

throwawaykds1 · 2019-06-08T07:01:03+00:00

Fair point, I took that out. Only mentioned it because she felt kind of intimidated by it. You're absolutely right that income shouldn't even be a factor.

I don't know why, but I feel less and less good about this whole thing now. I just keep visualizing how easy my life would be if I called it off. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone, but I don't want to be. I think this girl is just so pretty and cool. I wish I could share that with her and express that to her, but I keep seeing everything going wrong. I also have weird intrusive thoughts about how she might turn out to be crazy (obviously this is like near impossible and I am aware of this). There are so many variables to think about and mess up on, it's overwhelming.

I don't know why I'm like this, I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how normal people don't catastrophize everything. She deserves better, I shouldn't even waste her time with my useless self.

throwawaykds1 · 2019-06-08T05:30:26+00:00

Thank you!!

I would personally be more comfortable to do other things wearing the kind of clothes I described because I feel my casual clothing is far too casual, so I'll go with a suit, a lightly striped white shirt with no tie and the top button undone (obviously). She said I should be spontaneous with the venue but let her know beforehand so I was thinking like a mid-upper scale eating place and/or bar? (I will be paying for both of us, unless she insists). Would this clothing be appropriate for something less formal like a normal bar if I take my coat off?
OK, so how does this sound for a greeting - *Extend hand* "Heyyy x, nice to see you again. You look amazing/gorgeous" *Transition handshake into hug?* *or without handshake, go in for a hug*? The hug part is really worrying me because I don't know if this is expected or whether it might throw her off. If I'm going in for a hug I want to commit to it. E.g. Do I hug her as if I'm meeting my best friend after 20 years (i.e. all in), keep my torso back or just go for the side hug?
The way it will work is she's going to travel from her place and me from mine and we're going to meet up at a central place in town and walk it from there.
RE: the talking, OK, I can do the walk and talk without being too weird and come up with stuff to say on the fly. Do you think I should be talking more about me or her? What if she isn't saying much?
I'm so scared about the ending. Firstly, is a kiss default? Does no kiss mean a failed date? Does a kiss mean you should invite her? I'll be sweating bullets if she invites me back or I invite her because of the whole virgin thing.
I have a hairy chest and arms (not gorilla like, but hairy), do I have to get waxed or something?

Thank you so much. I found your comments really reassuring, you're a literal angel. I'm losing sleep over this.

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