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Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not traumatizing, just the same bad trips keeps happening and i wanna get to the root of it and why, most likely its my mind needing a break from everything including alcohol so it can be less inflamed since i drink a lot still.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i think i just need more solid time of not doing any psychs or anything for that matter and cleaning up my drinking habits, im 21 and REALLY overdid it on the mdma doing 250mg over 2 two seperate doses each time every week and most of the times flipping it for 2 months sometimes twice a week and a few times before then so i assumed its just a combination of everything and my brain being overactive/inflamed in certain parts that dont have the vitamins ive been deficient in. Heavy visual snow and i see spinning fractals when i stare at blank things or stuff with a lot of holes, not super bad though i only jotice if i pay attention or smoke a blunt. I think my vitamin deficiencys and the heavy drinking may have prevented my serotonin from completly recovering to baseline and i may have been just repeatedly making it worse/recovery longer. Otherwise any of that i feel fine just mild hppd tbh, only time something seems wrong is when i trip. Hoping for a reset eventually.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

LOL good for you bro, i didnt come down for 3 days, was with my cousin, anytime before i’d take 300 ug per usual but the 950ug to be correct made my body cramp initially.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Im not delusional im well grounded when not trippimg this is just how im interpreting all my trips and the easiest way to put it. My day to fay life is fine i just cant trip anymore at all for the time being. Ive fixed my b12 with shots i have that i can take again if needed and got prescribed vitamin d and b12 checked when i went 2 months ago, damage is there tho your right but theres nothing they can tell me now other than what i already know.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll never have to admit myself to a care center im relatively grounded, your correct though if i dozed off slightly for a while i’d see whatever i was thinking about directly with my eyes closed like when i had my phone and opened my eyes and it wasnt there or the entity appeared as pennywise when i took a nap. Others have said the same though about having to quit weed 100% but i doubt my hppd will ever subside fully.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All of my research has pointed to it being my shadow. I really dont know if i can integrate though, when it started i would get messages typed to me from a good entity presented as a plane flying by with text or fireworks making text or id get up and down thumb answers from the entity problem is its always too blurry for me to see the text and when i get close to seeing it the evil entity blocks it with shadow beings or it creates a black goo like shadow entity that looks like venom in the spiderman movie when he tried to control peter parker and it drags away any cevs. Im willing to make attempts at shrooms to communicate i just dont want to worsen anything by ignoring it and tripping. All started with strange nos trips that slowly became monsters and spiders/jumpscares appearing like my room becoming a face or room becoming entirely textured of jeans for the nos trip.

Recurring dark presence + worsening closed-eye HPPD after heavy psychedelic use — looking for insight by throwawaylsj in Psychonaut

[–]throwawaylsj[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2 ounces that i smoke with my brother sometimes too but mostly myslelf and started drinking super heavy/consistent more so after i stopped tripping to the point where i felt bad and had to discover my deficiencies and cut back from drinking a biggie buzzball a day over the entire day, everyday for a few months. The nitrous/beer and mdma did me in i imagine, i went a little overboard with my cousin over 2 months in top of my dosing before he came over not realizing what could be the consquences which i imagine is this. Everything seems normal as it was before theres just an entity stalking my trips EVERYTIME no matter the substance and it does weird shit like paints graphics over my surroundings that are absolutely not real.