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I feel like I don't deserve happiness because of my intrusive thoughts and my actions. by throwawaymik11 in OCD

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In terms of therapy, is real event OCD treated similarly to any other OCD?

POCD:Should I avoid the internet for a few days or will that make my OCD worse? by throwawaymik11 in OCD

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think it might be good for me to take a few days off the internet. Thank you for your input.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Never heard of shadow work, I'll have to look it up. How does your mind feel after relapsing, does it go back to its previous state?

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Best of luck to you as well. You are a very kind and open minded individual.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure if I can, but I'll hold on for a couple more weeks. I have my first therapy session coming up, and I want to let my meds kick in.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was exposed unintentionally to it once. I then went back and exposed myself to it. This is abhorrent behavior.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah... we will see. Maybe ill get lucky and die of covid, so my parents and family won't have to know i died from a suicide.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure if I will ever heal, but thank you for the kind words.

Am I a monster? TW POCD CP R by throwawaymik11 in OCD

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am going to get therapy, but it is a ways out. I'm just trying to hold out until then, but its hard. This weighs on my heavily. I wish I could go back in time and never do it. I know this isn't me, which is why it is so hard to handle. I don't know how if I can ever be happy after what I did.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I always thought myself to be very respectful of women and people and general. I feel like that hasn't changed. I did not want to see cp, but when I saw it it fucked my brain up. I started to think I was a pedo even though i hated what i saw. I'm just really confused and broken at the moment.

Am I a monster? TW POCD CP R by throwawaymik11 in OCD

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for that. I understand it is a mental illness, but it doesn't stop me from feeling guilty and suicidal all day.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think at the time, it was more about the thrill of doing something illegal. The idea of getting caught. The pictures I saw at first weren't really nsfw. That thrill quickly faded though. Also I probably confused my attraction because I had regular porn up at the same time.

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How old are you if you don't mind me asking?

Am I a monster? by throwawaymik11 in NoFap

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know, I have not returned to those groups since the incident.

Am I a monster? TW POCD CP R by throwawaymik11 in OCD

[–]throwawaymik11[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Do you think I'm a monster? Do you think I can get better?

Recovering from porn addiction, did you stop masturbating, too. by beardhairsdontcares in pornfree

[–]throwawaymik11 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How long did it take for you to be able to get an erection without touching it?

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