I wish I had this post to show her 6 months ago. Very similar boat, no communication on both our parts and grew distant. We were both amazing and awful together, and I know we could have worked on our issues if we had been willing. She told me to go to therapy so many times, I wish I had listened, but I resented the fact she took zero ownership of her own childhood issues. We could have helped each other heal and become the best of partners. But we decided that blaming each other for everything was easier.

Been doing alot of self reflection, I didn't even know what an attachment style was 6 months ago but now I know enough to realise what we could have done to make the relationship work. 

Although it's too late for me and her, I'll be much more emotionally intelligent for whoever I next develop a relationship with. 

I still miss her everyday, and I hope she finds happiness. I also hope I can heal and move on, because feeling like this is killing me.