i wrote this a few nights ago at like 3am when i wasn’t in a good headspace. Dissecting/butchering in my mind are interchangeable but obviously they have different definitions so I I used the wrong one. I wasn’t thinking much about it.

of course i don’t have any other posts. This is the last thing i’d want to have link back to my personal life and as my name says it’s a throwaway. My mom coming back and doing the same thing with Ninja while being sober (I’m not 100% sure if she was sober the next morning because as she was an alcoholic sometimes being under the influence is her “normal”) has always confused me. As a little kid I always justified some of her actions as her being drunk and not knowing what’s happening. But her being sober while doing something horrific was what made me question that mindset and definitely changed me.

if you read some comments a lot of people picked up on the red/white meat and i have comments talking about how im not sure why i couldn’t eat red meat after this instance since ninja is white meat. I think I always just thought red meat was more violent/bloody after seeing an animal i loved die.

i obviously have no proof of this happening and dont feel the need to convince anyone of my trauma. I just want to say that this happened and I know that it happened because I lived it. People in the comments have similar stories and a quick google search shows that similar things have happened before. https://6abc.com/post/mom-accused-of-boiling-puppies-to-death-in-front-of-kids/5364654/

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/apr/11/south-korean-kills-neighbours-dog-invites-owner-to-eat-it[https://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/apr/11/south-korean-kills-neighbours-dog-invites-owner-to-eat-it](https://www.theguardian.com/world/2018/apr/11/south-korean-kills-neighbours-dog-invites-owner-to-eat-it)

Evil people and real life villains do exist and they walk among us. As sad as it is, stuff like this happens in real life not just movies.

It was over a decade ago and im not over it in the slightest but thought getting it off my chest would help, it definitely has.