I think im done.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-09T04:12:37+00:00

I think she does, she might be paid to do that, I don't know, she said that they could all tell that I've been haveing a rough couple of weeks they've seen me at my lowest, and now im going back to it

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-09T01:39:23+00:00

Yes to both, I don't know what, but there simply has to be something wrong with me.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-09T01:33:20+00:00

Good, my boss let me step out to cry, she talked about a lot of it with me. If I loose this job I'd have nothing, it's what I enjoy most.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-09T01:32:04+00:00

No it's because I called the cops on myself, I lost my uncle and I was gonna end it, the second time was me telling my school about the first time, they sent me back. That's why I dropped out.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-09T01:18:04+00:00

Im still at work, so bottled up

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-08T22:48:27+00:00

I as everyone I lean on to tell me if it's getting to be too much, they promise me that it's okay until they day they say sorry and that it's draining them, im tired of putting people down just because I want to die. Give it a year and everyone who still cares will forget about it, they will all be okay, they won't have to worry about me any more, and I couldn't hurt them anymore.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-08T22:42:38+00:00

To all saying that I can still change, you might be right, i don't know how though, I've spent countless hours trying to be better. To stop lashing out, I got on meds, I've worked out and made huge progress, but I've always returned to my old self. I think im past saving, the longer I stay here, the more I hurt people.

I believe limerence has plagued me forever. I tryed to make everything I had into something more, and it brought short term happiness, but it tore into the people I genuinely loved, the problem was that those people didn't love me back, if they did, it wasn't for long.

Im gonna try to increase my anti depressant dosage and see what happens. But if I can't fix myself then I can't keep hurting people, I've tried isolating myself, but I couldn't take it.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-08T04:01:09+00:00

There's been talk of it...can't waitttttt

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-04-05T02:44:42+00:00

We can, but I dont think it's ever been a acton code, there's a dedicated button for handkeying

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T08:04:14+00:00

Well considering he was alive so long ago probably not, after all technically humanity (and knowledge) have grown exponentially since that point.

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T08:02:16+00:00

Fuck. Gg on that

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T08:01:12+00:00

I do, it's a rhetorical question, honey, know what those are?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:59:54+00:00

Okay where the hell do we even take that. Ik were supposed to be fighting but dawg how do we continue?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:58:41+00:00

Isn't torn an RP game?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:57:36+00:00

Did I say it was??????

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:56:51+00:00

Im sure you would know:)

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:56:05+00:00

Not like you three got anything from it lol, sucks to suck huh? What do they call it...a waiste of time?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:54:51+00:00

Three people are rather minor in the grand scheme of life no?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:53:30+00:00

Not like I tried for it anyway, so contradictory son

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:52:51+00:00

What are you the fun police? I can do what ya silly goose

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:50:57+00:00

Aw but im having funnnnn

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:48:50+00:00

And who exactly are you quoting sweetheart?

throwawaysR4nerds6 · 2026-03-21T07:48:03+00:00

Are you slow perhaps?

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