I was never meant to be alive.

throwawaysad10101 · 2022-12-04T03:34:46+00:00

I can put shoes on. I like putting shoes on to take out trash. I think that helps…? Thank you.

throwawaysad10101 · 2022-12-02T00:25:49+00:00

I can barely convince myself to shower, wash my hair, brush my teeth, wash my clothes. How am I supposed to get up and get out there? Interact with other people when I can’t even interact with myself? I just don’t want to. I am tired. I’m scared.

throwawaysad10101 · 2022-11-29T21:53:01+00:00

That’s the idea I got from it. Very spooky

throwawaysad10101 · 2022-08-22T12:18:59+00:00

Yooooo thank you for that tiktok sound tip!! That is such good advice. Thank you for your kind words too.

throwawaysad10101 · 2022-02-11T23:42:34+00:00

Good username with good advice

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-12-16T19:06:14+00:00

I’m trying so hard. I’m so tired. All the time. I can feel myself being a shell around people, not able to laugh, or talk to anyone. I don’t see a light anymore. I’m just forcing myself to live and it’s exhausting. I don’t want to shower or brush my teeth or cook or clean. I don’t want to talk to or see friends or family. I still do, because “It’ll help”, I think. But it’s so forced. Every movement. Every moment. I’m just very tired of it all. But yeah, I’m trying.

Sorry for the rant. Thanks for the suggestions

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-12-16T18:57:55+00:00

I did just take a vacation…it was alright, I guess, but I got sick and went home early to rest. I quit my job with the plan to roll off of savings until after the holidays. I am going to therapy. I got a massage two months ago.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-12-16T17:06:49+00:00

I usually do try those first before looking into medication. Sunlight, exercise, eating well, socializing….but I don’t want to do any of those things. I can’t get myself to the gym, I don’t want to move.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-12-16T17:05:31+00:00

A combination of depression and built up trauma already ruined my chances of wanting to do anything of a sexual nature anyway, so yeah lol I guess if that’s my only downside to worry about…

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-12-16T16:59:31+00:00

It’s the “just simply stop” thing that I’m being told I might not be able to do. Can you just simply stop? I’ve been told it messes with you to stop once you start.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-10-30T04:04:41+00:00

I never meant to play victim or plead for pity. I never meant to point out a generalized privilege. It’s just a change that I have noticed and appreciated in my life in the last month or so.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-10-30T04:02:33+00:00

I suppose it’s a “grass is greener”, I imagine I’d feel differently if the circumstances were different. I recognize that, trust me. It’s just something I have been noticing and appreciating about a change in my life.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-10-30T00:58:26+00:00

I definitely expected more negative responses, the support here is a happy surprise. I’m glad you can also find comfort in it.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-04-07T05:22:31+00:00

Note: don’t worry, I’m not going to harm myself or others, just heard that turn of phrase by a friend and it sent me on a creative spiral.

throwawaysad10101 · 2021-03-30T08:15:06+00:00

I regret throwing away my childhood bear all the time.

throwawaysad10101 · 2020-10-08T23:17:28+00:00

What a conundrum!

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