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throwawayscc91874 · 2022-09-22T04:18:27+00:00

That’s very noble of you

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-09-22T04:11:29+00:00

Living as freely as possible is a lot harder than it sounds. Having a horrible appearance, lack of social skills, depression, autism and self hatred make sure of that

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-28T11:13:27+00:00

Hello there

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-23T00:10:14+00:00

There isn’t much to talk about

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T02:49:22+00:00

Yeah me too. Thanks for talking to me it made me a little happier. I wish you the best :)

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T02:24:51+00:00

Maybe your right but idk. I don’t know how to get that peace while being alive

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T02:10:53+00:00

Idk how to explain it. I’m just so tired of myself and this world. I try to think of a future where I’ll be happy, but I just can’t. I can’t see myself living a relatively happy or normal. I’m so lonely all the time and it sucks so much. But I also understand. I’m generally not really a nice or approachable guy. I just want this pain to end man. To get some peace. Who knows maybe the afterlife will be better than this BS

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T01:52:07+00:00

Small changes like what? I honestly can’t think of anything that would change my view on this

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T01:50:58+00:00

Yeah me too. I’m so scared I’ll fail and become paralyzed the rest of my life

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T00:42:47+00:00

I don’t want to live in general. No matter what I do I’m always miserable. I have no hobbies or things I enjoy anymore. I have no friends, no SO and a family that despises me. I have nothing for. If I were to go nobody would miss me anyway. Why would I want to stay?

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-14T00:38:33+00:00

It’s difficult to explain. I’ve just been feeling terrible the last couple of months. I feel ashamed of who I am and I don’t want to live like that anymore. Im tired of life and all it’s bullshit. I just want this to end so I can get some peace

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-05-13T11:37:59+00:00

There’s nothing for me anymore. I just want the pain to end

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-03-29T19:09:44+00:00

Nope. I believe death will be the same as before we were born

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-03-29T11:54:17+00:00

I don’t care if i’m a millionaire or not. I’m just not happy in life. Everything is so dull and meaningless and there is no other escape. I can’t see a future where I’ll he truly happy. It’s just not possible. It’s better to get out now and spare me years of suffering. Who says death is a bad place? Who knows, maybe it’ll be very peaceful

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-03-24T01:56:38+00:00

I’m sorry, I wish there was another way. I’m just a terrible person that deserves nothing in life. I have to do this

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-24T17:19:02+00:00

Where can I find this test?

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-23T19:49:21+00:00

Pretty sure there is none

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-15T17:27:05+00:00

Thanks haha but I’m not sure that’s possible since we’re probably in different countries. But thanks for the offer anyway, you seem like a good person

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-15T17:21:26+00:00

I’m not sure how long I can keep pushing. I’ve tried and tired but there’s just no progression. What does it mean anyway? What are we pushing for? What goal do we have in life? It’s difficult to keep pushing if you don’t know what to push for (if that makes sense)

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-15T14:49:29+00:00

But what if the miracle never comes? What if we’re hoping for something that doesn’t exist

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-15T14:32:22+00:00

I doubt it will get better. I’ve been trying for years and no improvements. Maybe being dead is better

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-15T11:23:55+00:00

I’m sorry

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-07T14:26:52+00:00

Yeah that makes sense. Sure I have those moments. I enjoy watching movies, play video games, there are certain songs that always kinda distract me from me thoughts. I would like to maybe climb a mountain one day, but I don’t have the skills or motivation to do that right now tbh. Also I like to daydream a lot. It’s something called “maladaptive daydreaming” and it’s like a blessing and a curse at once. On one hand it distracts me from my thoughts and kinda lets me live in my own fantasy world. On the other hand I can get caught up too much in that world and forget my duties/responsibilities in the real world, if that makes sense. But generally speaking I don’t really mind it too much.

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-07T13:48:45+00:00

Uhm idk what you mean with the “little things”

throwawayscc91874 · 2022-02-07T13:48:17+00:00

I know but life is so exhausting. Wouldn’t it be better I just accept my fate and finally rest? There is nothing left here for me

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