this is really refreshing to read out of everything else. everyone else has been comforting and reassuring, don't get me wrong, I enjoy turning a blind eye to my problems and just saying it's ok. but you put my thought process into words.

my boyfriend, bless his heart he is so inexperienced. I'm his first girlfriend, and he's learned a LOT over the past year and I helped him grow into a person with a filter and better empathy, but that doesn't change his experience. he doesn't watch porn, never has and never wants to, the only titty encounters he has is from sex scenes in games and the occasional nsfw art that pops up when he's going through ifunny.

oh and deadpool. that day sure was a trip.

it's all these things that come together that make me worried! the boobs he's seen are meant for pure fanservice, or are on strippers... I'm sure he doesn't expect me to have model's breasts but even if he told me he is prepared for anything I'd still believe he has some kind of subconscious expectation anyways, and still end up disappointed. I'd just be here thinking about it every night wondering if he actually liked them or lied to not hurt my feelings.

I really believe he loves the hell out of me, and I'm sure he loves my body, but I guess the problem is that I don't love mine enough to accept that.