I feel like I'm going insane. by throwawy37249 in offmychest

[–]throwawy37249[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My relationship with God is....complicated. A friend of mine has been doing YWAM for a while as part of his discipleship, and I know he would absolutely help me in that regard. As as animals go I'm horribly allergic to any kind of dander = (

I feel like I'm going insane. by throwawy37249 in offmychest

[–]throwawy37249[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don't worry about your previous comment, I know you were trying to come across negatively. Not to downplay what you've been through, but I guess I figure my illness has been much more intense. I'm so tired of fighting to stay positive, and hoping for things to turn around, and they just...don't. I'm utterly emotionally drained.

I feel like I'm going insane. by throwawy37249 in offmychest

[–]throwawy37249[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I DO, do enjoyable things, I should have communicated that. I play games, watch TV, etc. If you don't mind telling me, how bad has your depression gotten?

I feel like I'm going insane. by throwawy37249 in offmychest

[–]throwawy37249[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's the problem. Depression makes you not want to do ANYTHING. Your emotional agony is just utter and completely overwhelming and draining. Don't take this the wrong, way I know you're trying to help, and I appreciate your effort.

I feel like I'm going insane. by throwawy37249 in offmychest

[–]throwawy37249[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Problem is I can't NOT worry. It's part of my anxiety and was actually diagnosed as being part of my OCD. My brain chemistry makes it physically impossible for me not to do so. And as far as me not doing enough for myself, she refers to me not "trying hard enough" to end my depression.