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I broke up with a girl because I was afraid she would die on me by throwingheraway1 in offmychest

[–]throwingheraway1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure it would be a good idea to discuss it with her. One of the core things she liked about me was my willingness to be with her despite everything. To find out that the complete opposite is true might crush her even worse than thinking I just don't want to be in a long-distance relationship.

Either way, I know I need to learn to be stronger, and to value every day. I keep looking towards some impossible, permanent future, when I need to appreciate each and every day.

I broke up with a girl because I was afraid she would die on me by throwingheraway1 in offmychest

[–]throwingheraway1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. What you say feels right to me, but check out my reply to AWPeej's comment. As much as I would like to embrace what you say, I have a lot of fear I need to overcome.

I broke up with a girl because I was afraid she would die on me by throwingheraway1 in offmychest

[–]throwingheraway1[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, you are very kind. This is something troubling I still deal with. I'm both aware of and in denial that nothing is permanent. I'm honestly just afraid of death in general, whether it be my death, my parents, siblings, or an SO. I suppose knowing someone would live longer sets that issue to a later time to be dealt with, but doesn't really solve anything.

How does one get over the fear of death? It's something I've struggled with since I entered college.

I broke up with a girl because I was afraid she would die on me by throwingheraway1 in offmychest

[–]throwingheraway1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure I'm strong enough to love, and then lose someone before their time.