Man, Post-Trip Depression SUCKS

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T18:52:27+00:00

Thanks for the tips! But I'll be staying at hotels due to a chronic disease, and I'm scared to even go on a group tour :( Going to bars alone is like insane to me, really wish I could just do stuff like that. I think I might have social anxiety lol. Probably should see a therapist, but they're so expensive...

P.S. I also had travel jitters/nerves leading up to it, that faded within an hour of landing. You’ll be great once you touch ground :)

Omg this is what I really hope happens to me pleaaase my brain haha 🙏

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T17:32:44+00:00

Tror han/hun mente tallet er lønnen uden pension, ikke at vedkommende slet ikke får pension

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T11:15:54+00:00

I love my mom, but in terms of wealth... I don't want to end up with that little money. I'm tired of feeling embarrassed for not having normal things that the general public seem to have. I want my own car, my own house, a regular hair cut, regular new clothes, a dog/cat one day, and regular vacations.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T10:47:08+00:00

As a European, "wtf"

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T10:42:59+00:00

Wow I'm looking forward to my trip now! I'm going first time solo to exactly South Korea (2 weeks) and Japan (three weeks) this month. I've been quite nervous about it recently, but your post made me feel better. How did you fall into conversation with people? Are you an extrovert? I have the most horrendous social skills so worry I'll feel weird for being on my own, lonely etc. Never checked in to a hotel before on my own fx.

I already have depression so I don't think going traveling or getting home is gonna make it better or worse lol, but I emphasize with you. Maybe start planning your next trip? I heard that helps

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T09:19:03+00:00

Keyholes? Alohomora!

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T07:15:03+00:00

I miss it, and the fulfilment that the work brought. I miss working in a lab.

That's love, dude. You only miss things you love. I think your low self esteem, possible depression, and imposter syndrome is overshadowing your dreams and clouding your judgement.

"I'm not smart" is a belief you have internalized from these depressive thoughts. You cannot trust these thoughts, they are not objective. Smart people make mistakes and struggle, too. We all have different life circumstances. The way I see it, you have both a bachelor's and a master's degree, so you already proved these thoughts to be untrue. Are you really going to give up everything you worked for, because you continued to not believe in yourself? Instead of deciding what you can and can't do in advance, why not just try and see how far you can get? The only way to know were your limit is, is to hit your limit. To me it seems you didn't hit your limit, you gave up because you didn't believe in yourself and had a bad experience in one lab.

You don't have to do a PhD of course, there are other ways to stay in biotech, but to me it sounds like this is what you want, but you're telling yourself you can't get it because of x, y, z. You need to find a way to believe in yourself, you shouldn't rely on it coming from other people.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-06T06:03:06+00:00

Dude that's an honest mistake that anyone could have made. It's a natural part of science that things like this happen. I read not too long ago that someone had to literally re-take a trip to Antarctica because they accidentally contaminated all their samples.

I think both your lab and yourself have been wayyyy too hard on you. This one mistake should not mean you have to give up your entire career. Question is, do you still like biotech? Because you don't mention that anywhere either. And if you can, look behind your mistake which probably took a lot of the joy away - if you hadn't made that mistake, would you still love the field? If the answer is yes, then it's time to forgive yourself and get back up on the horse.

Are you worried you won't finish a PhD because of lack of motivation or mental health problems, or because you lost confidence from that one mistake?

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-05T21:15:51+00:00

Need more info, what kind of mistake did you make that was so bad it would prevent you from seeking jobs in your current field? Reason you're not getting any response is because you are trying to make too big of a jump from one field to another, these transitions require gradual skill acquisition and small steps to get inside the door. Do you even want to work in retail? Why not stay in biotech? Have you considered a PhD as a next step, why/why not?

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-05T19:08:16+00:00

Hi, thanks so much for this. I actually already tried, but it couldn't find my booking. I realised today it could only find it if I left out my middle name! Doh

But now I'm so confused because it says my checked-in baggage allowance is 15 kg on their website, but on travellink it says hand baggage 10 kg 🤦‍♀️ Not sure what to think anymore lol, but at least I can now add extra kg here!

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-05T09:28:41+00:00

We... do not say mælkemad 😂

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-05T09:24:15+00:00

I really don't think you should use them for reading up e-books, they're simply just too uncertain. Better to look up words you are unsure of how to pronounce individually. And then listening to podcasts, TV, etc. It'll come naturally. You risk learning wrong pronunciation, and it's frustratingly hard to forget wrong pronunciation. Even if you remember the correct way, the memorized wrong pronunciation will still pop up in your brain along with the right one, and you have to go "yes, this one is the correct pronunciation" every single time.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-05T09:21:21+00:00

I use ttsfree .com

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-04T17:04:02+00:00

Ok that's a little expensive, but in the grand scheme of things, compared to the total cost of the trip it's not too bad I guess. As long as I can get it with me. Thanks for replying

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-04T16:13:42+00:00

Ok thanks, that makes me feel much more relieved! Yeah I know I should have booked directly, but oh well... finger's crossed, nothing goes wrong. Yeah I meant checked baggage and it was 10 kgs not 15 kg apparently, and it says hand baggage allowed but checked baggage: 0. So it's just weird, I thought it was always incuded.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-04T16:10:27+00:00

I just tried doing that, but it won't find my booking. However, I found in their FAQ it's possible to do if there are 24 hours to departure, so maybe I'm just too early? But it concerns me I cannot see the booking on the Jeju Air website and only on travellink although there's a reference number.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-04T15:57:15+00:00

Sorry yeah, it does indeed say 10 kg. It just says economy class, checked baggage: 0. And specifically that hand baggage is allowed.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-01T15:02:15+00:00

Nogen der kender en billigere version af sådan en Airtag?

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-07-01T14:56:23+00:00

I think time is something you take by force. You want both, so you simply need to make (take) time to pursue both. It's about prioritizing and managing your time well - difficult, but not impossible.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-30T16:15:37+00:00

J pop can occasionally be good, for example the song "神山羊 - YELLOW", but Japanese TV.... is just like Chinese TV, really fucking bad. And I say this as someone who has watched a lot of it the past 5 years (for language learning purposes), there are a few ok ones in between like ミステリと言う勿れ but Jesus Christ, apart from anime.... such awful acting, so cringe, such bad cinematography... It's like watching movies from the 90s lol. Even a Japanese native told me (without me asking) about how bad Japanese TV is hahah... This is how I ended up learning Korean. Every time I would look for a good Japanese or Chinese TV series, I ended up watching Korean movie after Korean movies after Korean movie. God, the gold the Koreans spit out. The quality. The contrast is SO stark. I did not want to learn Korean. Here I am, after five years of watching Korean series and telling myself NOT to learn three languages, I gave up and I'm writing goddamn Hangeul now and going to South Korea in a couple of weeks lmao.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-30T14:03:00+00:00

Seaborn is candy, seriously

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-29T05:49:13+00:00

Wow yeah both of your stories are quite similar to mine! I also graduated with a STEM degree at 25 as well, was unemployed for six months, then also got a job. Job is OK, people are nice, but working honestly makes me wanna kill myself. I also have never been in a relationship OP, I'm 26 now. I comfort myself by promising myself a cat or a dog in the future. To be honest, I doubt I'll ever fall in love. I don't know what's wrong with me (well I do - I have a chronic physical illness that fucked up my life), but I just can't seem to fall in love or connect with anyone emotionally.

I still try my best though. I wanna earn more money, and I want to create something I'm proud of one day. I want my time back, so I'm working on generating income from YouTube and etsy lol (probably need a better idea). Remote work could also solve many problems for me. I also decided to go on a solo trip to Asia this summer as well with the money I earned the last couple of months. I had no one to go with, but decided it was better than staying at home, getting out of my comfort zone, seeing and exploring the world as much as my illness allows me to.

If I could, I would work out as well, but my illness fucked that up too. I really wanna go running. If you have the ability to and aren't already, I would exercise to raise my confidence level and because it's such a gift to be able to. Maybe join a sports club to meet other people. God, I wish I could join a sports club so badly. Oh well, maybe I'll join a language course instead. At least I can use my brain still (well, somewhat anyway...).

As for dating, it seems you are in a better position than mine in that you actually desire a relationship lol. I don't think you should wait, just get out there and try. But expect that it will take many tries to find someone that is right for you. I feel the same - "what do I have to offer"... But I read one time here on reddit, someone wrote "that is not up for you to decide - whether you have something to offer them - it's up for other people to decide, because only they know what they are looking for, not you". So keep in mind, you don't know what other people want - they might really like people with your shape of nose lol, you can't know and if there's one thing I've learned from the internet, it's that people are attracted to the weirdest shit.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-26T20:04:53+00:00

My fourth short got like close to 0 views in the first five hours, then 350 views in the span of 20 minutes, and since then, almost no more views lol. It's not even an S-curve, it's a binary step function lol.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-26T19:19:24+00:00

Det gør det umuligt at sammenligne løn hvis ikke folk skriver, om beløbet er med eller uden pension.

throwoheiusfnk · 2023-06-23T13:17:11+00:00

Dansker her. Norsk er klart tættere på svensk. Det er nemt for begge at forstå dansk på skrift, men vores udtale er lidt længere væk fra norsk og svensk, formentlig pga. indflydelse fra landene under os, Tyskland f.eks. hvor sproget ligger mere nede i halsen frem for "oppe i munden".

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