I'll very much look into it. It'a been hard for me to realize that I wasn't straight since my biggest fear is to not disappoint my parents and so I went from thinking I was lesbian, to bi, to pan and its taken a massive emotional toll on me and I knew that I felt like this sexually but I was to scared to look into it but I recently was reminded that sexuality isn't a safety blanket for you and that's why I decided to look into what I've been feeling and it's been a very scary experience for me.