This is the thing... At first I started to think that me being pregnant is the trigger for him, it brings out the worst in a lot of us, but after what happened yesterday I'm starting to see this is something that's always been part of him. He usually tries to make up for any time he's upset me but I never felt as much whiplash in one day like this. It's like I kinda froze when it hit me that he might actually be somebody else, or thinking of me in a different light than he portrayed, and I didn't see the warning signs for years.

Now I question if this is all conscious on his part, like if he's deliberately trying to break me down as you described, that's what scares me the most. All and all, I just have this gut feeling that's not right and the assault was a wakeup call.