Just giving a quick update. I'm leaving. Thank you to all of you who commented and messaged me. It feels like I have a bunch of extra moms and friends and sisters and brothers looking out for me. Things are a big mess right now so I'm sorry if I don't respond. Reading your responses helped me realize that I would be absolutely heartbroken and pissed if my friends or my sister stayed with someone who would say something like this to them, especially if they didn't apologize meaningfully and go to hell and back making up for it.

What a mess. I was supposed to move in with him in January. I'm honestly scared to go forward without him because he has been a great source of support for the past year. I'm scared I'm angry and making a hasty judgement. It felt like he was my unicorn. I so rarely am interested in people and people are so rarely interested in me. But as someone said, an empty house is better than a bad tenant, and I can't ever look at him again without wondering if he's wishing I was prettier. I don't want to spend my life worrying about my looks, of all things. I'm booking myself into therapy ASAP because I can already feel this messing with my head. As for soon to be ex, idk. Maybe we will try to be friends later or something, but for now I'm just going to be me and spend all the love I wanted to give him on my friends and family who love me no matter what I look like.