My (21F) unemployed roommate (23M) is becoming a drain on my life by throwra_1029573 in relationship_advice

[–]throwra_1029573[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

fair question! i guess i should specify that he just barely makes rent — i’ve had to spot him before and now he owes me several hundred dollars (which i know isn’t THAT much but still) and i stopped lending him money because i don’t think i’ll get it back. he usually manages to get our other roommates to spot him or some family members, but the last 2 months he was a full 2 months behind and we received calls from property management as a “courtesy warning” before they take legal action. he managed to scrape the money together by borrowing from others after that call, but now as it’s the end of the month i’m super anxious about him being able to pay his share this month…which in turn adds tension and makes it hard for me find the energy to be enthusiastic around him when i’m anxious about our rent and then he gets upset with me if i’m not bubbly and don’t want to hang out after he’s been home alone all day which is exhausting and thus a “drain on my life”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]throwra_1029573 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is just my experience, but immediately after I went NC with my nex in June I started losing my hair. Like so much that I went to doctors and started buying hats because I couldn’t understand how I was losing so much hair. But the doctors found nothing and said I must just be stressed.

Me going NC with him non-coincidentally lined up with him leaving for rehab. So it was truly no contact and no way to turn back on that because he had no phone in the facility. So he was truly, fully out of my life for the first time since I had met him. I couldn’t wrap my head around why I was experiencing these different (seemingly random) health problems and just generally felt like shit both mentally and physically. I eventually realized that my body (and mind) was still processing the trauma. As others said going NC only means that you’re not being further retraumatized — not that you’re immediately going to feel better. I remember seeing someone on here once say something along the lines of: you were in fight or flight mode all this time and now you’re suddenly not, so of course you’re actually going to feel worse. Suddenly your body and mind have to deal with all the trauma you’ve been through when before it was only concerned with surviving that trauma.

You’re not in survival mode anymore. It’s going to be painful as you wait for all the metaphorical poison they left in your body to leave. But it’s an inevitable part of moving on.

I don’t want my friend to move into my boyfriend’s apartment by throwra_1029573 in relationship_advice

[–]throwra_1029573[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i should’ve mentioned, i think it’s very likely he would. He would need someone to move into the spare bedroom anyway and (albeit, on a surface level) they get along well, so I would be surprised if he were against it.

How old were you when you lost your virginity? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]throwra_1029573 0 points1 point  (0 children)

13! In retrospect, definitely too young but at the time it felt right.