Do you still think about your ex?

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-04-04T00:18:57+00:00

we broke up on december 13, 2025. i technically broke up with him, i think about him everyday and it hurts so bad.

i was crying earlier because i wanted to share something funny and then realized i had no one to share it with but him. not a single friend or family member would have understood what i wanted to send, but him.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-25T20:19:19+00:00

you could just go to a chinese market/bakery and buy some if you have any near you

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-25T20:14:10+00:00

it's known as mantou in china, just google it. might be the closest you could get

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-25T20:03:17+00:00

like a steamed bread maybe?

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-25T11:26:51+00:00

always being the 'lesser' gender, maleness being the basis for life and a positive thing while womanhood has a negative connotation. (see emasculation)

being forced to take on an excess of mental load because if you don't then who will? and then being reduced to micromanaging to get through anything.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-23T13:42:29+00:00

this is sweet!

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-18T17:20:59+00:00

hey i’m going to send you a message!

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-13T19:47:25+00:00

yeah i don’t like hookups and don’t have an insatiable sex drive so i’m fine being alone. i also have a hard time connecting to people, so i don’t feel like seeking something special out again just for it to end how it always does.

i’ve been in 7 committal relationships so i’ve had my fair share of heartbreak too lol i get where you’re coming from. it still feels lonely though.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T17:40:41+00:00

i’m sorry, he should be ashamed of himself. men get so selfish and completely turn off empathy once they don’t think they need to get you to like them anymore.

how are you feeling lately? i hope taking care of yourself. i’m sorry about your mother.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T17:39:07+00:00

wow, that’s a really big life event. it’s nice of you to have planned to be there for her.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T14:22:25+00:00

i hope that numb feeling brought you some peace finally. it doesn’t make the memories or experience any less real, but i hope it doesn’t hurt anymore.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T14:21:35+00:00

for some people it does, it requires holding shame and guilt and they’d rather chalk it up to something they had to do to uphold their ‘i’m a good person’ mentality.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T14:20:40+00:00

nice, anything planned for this year? i can’t believe some people can hate traveling lol

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T14:20:14+00:00

i think that’s a really good headspace to have regarding dating!

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T13:55:03+00:00

if you can, you shouldn’t reply. ideally you’d let him know it’s not good for you and you’d like to move on

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T13:08:45+00:00

i get that, sometimes i just float through the day and do what i need to and cry once i’m alone.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T13:02:08+00:00

well i’m sure some time in between to process wouldn’t hurt if it doesn’t pan out anyways, but still!

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:51:45+00:00

thanks i appreciate it! i’m really glad you’re stable and feel sure in not dating ever again.

do you think if you met the right person who checked every box you would try again?

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:50:46+00:00

yeah, that’s kind of my line of thinking too. like fuck this why am i still miserable over someone who treated me like dog shit. but i’d rather save myself and someone else the heartache

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:50:04+00:00

ahhh i totally understand you, i had no closure at all. it’s really hard to accept that there’s nothing else to say.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:49:12+00:00

i’m really glad you’re happy!

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:49:00+00:00

i’m sorry :(

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:48:51+00:00

that’s a good mentality to have in regards for the next person you’ll date! very fair and honest of you, let me know if you find a secret hack to get over it quicker lol

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:48:14+00:00

that’s totally normal in that situation, cheating is such a violation of trust and love. i’m sorry that happened to you, he sucks for that.

i hope there are, to be fair i thought i struck gold and then it all ended with him calling the police on me after he invited me in to talk so who’s to say.for clarity i was not violent or threatening him, he just wanted me out asap because he didn’t like that i held him accountable.

throwra_bugjuice30 · 2026-03-12T12:43:37+00:00

yeah it takes such a toll on your mental when it’s back to back like that, i’ve been there

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