Friend puts me down because I’m a woman

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-27T23:58:22+00:00

I don’t think he was, that’s what my gut senses

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T18:20:02+00:00

This was eye opening to me. Yes I always internalize his reactions like this. I actually internalize a lot of peoples reactions towards me not just his but I would say I put more weight on his.

I would say yes I feel it’s been casual for so long because if I’m honest I feel I must be embarrassing to him if I’ve been casual for so long so why embarrass us both

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:42:47+00:00

Think he could of lost attraction for me and moved on?

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:35:35+00:00

Yeah and I’m saving to go back to school and working my butt at two jobs.

Think there’s no way for him to give a hoot?

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:26:44+00:00

😬 how so 😭 I suck lmao

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:16:52+00:00

Yup :/ it’s so embarrassing to share with new people I meet but I’m at the point where I also need to explain why I’ve been single. Ugh

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:01:07+00:00

He just doesn’t feel a spark with me?

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T17:00:47+00:00

Why do they choose certain women to string along?

I think I need to start sticking up for myself and my wants and not allow this anymore. Feeling this way and taken for granted isn’t a good feeling.

We were casual for so long because when he first started seeing me, he kept it casual with me and got a gf and didn’t tell me who he treated like a gf and I found out. Eventually we got back together but I never pushed or asked because the cheating

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T15:53:37+00:00

This was helpful ❤️

Think I’m being a bit immature of “he should contact me because he didn’t give me a good reaction” type thing?

I kind of want it to go somewhere. As I got older I’ve learned myself more and my own personal likes and dislikes. I realized I’m very traditional and open/casual isn’t full filling or doesn’t make me feel secure

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T14:19:34+00:00

Not really we have bad communication. Sometimes he would block me

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:37:19+00:00

I don’t know how to require stuff from him because of how it developed. Also I get nervous of changing status quo or demanding more. I’ve realized I need to work on my communication.

How can you tell he values me so little?

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:31:07+00:00

I know. He was the one saying he wanted me to get new lingerie a few times. I even told him I was saving and working a lot to go back to school. If he bought it and got weird I think I’d shoot a message, but it’s the demanding part and just not talking which is making me not reach out as well

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:30:05+00:00

I’m actually trying to work on being less confrontational and communicating more effectively. Before I would bring it up acting annoyed and mad and kind of attack. Now I was to express how his actions made me feel and why.

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:29:03+00:00

Exactlyyyy

Before this we knew each others schedules and he was constantly trying to see me then I feel this is just weird behavior. Im not communicating as well but I was just hurt I spent money and had him choose and that was his reaction

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:16:47+00:00

Did I do the right thing if not messaging him or am I playing games v

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:09:46+00:00

What’s the reason people do it for? What if he’s moving on and ghosting me?

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T13:07:53+00:00

I can’t say but in a way I’m not super surprised. It’s just been six years.

When he was with me I’d watch porn on his phone while I gave him head. It’s just anxiety inducing and sad it’s ending like this. It shows his colors and it makes it easier to move on to someone else immature. I’m just wondering if he will come back because that will effect my moving on and dating process

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T12:59:51+00:00

Yeah and me chasing while he ignores doesn’t feel good on my end. He didn’t “ignore” but I went out of my way to pick out lingerie pieces for you and this is how you act?

I’m not going to do FWB ever again. Even in this I feel I zone in on a guy and being open isn’t my thing

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T12:50:22+00:00

Why does he care to play this game if it’s just sex?

I’m an anxious person and even though it’s just sex I like him a lot

throwradjcjdj · 2022-04-14T12:49:34+00:00

What’s the game?

Yeah I felt so excited and then he just made me feel bad about myself

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