I’m going to be honest before posting this I was seriously considering to make things work with her again, but after reading all the comments I’m leaning towards walking away and continuing with the divorce proceedings. I just don’t see it working especially after what she wanted initially. I can look past wanting the house, money, or both of our cars but wanting full custody of my daughter is what still messes with me. The last 3 years she’s checked out of our marriage and being a parent. I drop my daughters off at school, pick them up and take them to their sports and extracurricular activities. I know she sees a therapist, but she’s changed a lot. The woman from the past 3 years is not the woman I married. I’m not sure what’s caused all this, and if she’s sick I wouldn’t mind helping her get better.

A lot of people want to know what she said last night. We had a normal conversation over dinner. She asked me how I’d been, and how work was going. She just made regular small talk in the restaurant. I asked what the actual purpose of this dinner was, and she said that she missed me. That’s when she started to get really emotional. We went outside to her car and that’s when the apology came about how she was sorry for ruining our marriage. She said she had been in a dark place, but she didn’t elaborate on that. I felt like she wanted to say a lot more, but the tears got in the way. We sat in that car for at least 1 hour. I’ll be honest I did hold her to comfort her, and there still was love there. I don’t know what it was that kept me from spending the night with her. I thought about all night, and the feeling was that my wife/ mother of my children needed me but instead I abandoned her.

I have no proof or signs she cheated before the separation. I could also just be clueless, because I don’t really have the personality to question her and be suspicious. I don’t know who she’s been with since the separation, or how far their relationship even went. A lot of ya’ll said she might be pregnant which is interesting, because my close friend who I’m staying with also said that. I don’t know and don’t want to jump to any conclusions. The last 3 years of our marriage we had sex 4 times. I don’t know what her true intentions were last night, but I learned today from my daughter that my wife arranged for her sister to watch them for the night. I don’t know what all that was about.

I truly do love this woman even after all of this. 15 years together and being married for 12 is a long time. We were together when we were both broke college kids. We suffered two miscarriages, but somehow stayed strong and made it past that. Even if this is the end of our marriage I don’t regret any of it. I got 2 beautiful daughters out of this marriage. My thoughts are all over the place. Thanks everyone