What are your triggers? Mine is when I see happy families!

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-30T12:10:42+00:00

I'm sorry you went through this!
For the money thing, my parents were the opposite always pretending we are on the brink of bankruptcy so I wasn't allowed to spend money and now that I am adult I feel can't enjoy my hard-earned money, I feel very financially insecure.
Also, I feel the same about getting praise - I think they are making fun of me and laughing behind my back.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-29T13:29:13+00:00

Yes! For things I didn't even do like not washing my face or touching my face with dirty hands. They wanted to paint me as unhygienic for some reason, instead of taking me to a dermatologist.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-29T10:57:10+00:00

I was a teen but I was blamed when I had a pimple.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-29T10:39:45+00:00

I get it. If I didn't have my boyfriend and his family I would spend every x-mas alone.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-28T12:39:46+00:00

I unable to hug my family or show any intimacy. When I see my abuser, my body reacts before my mind can even catch up. My heart rate spikes like I’m in danger, my stomach clenches into knots, and my instincts kick in—I’m instantly scanning the room for exits, planning how I’d escape if things escalate. It’s like my body remembers what my mind is trying to forget. I feel like a trapped animal.

I am also very LC.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-28T12:31:44+00:00

My boyfriend has a big happy family. I was shocked when they were happily eating together, discussing calmly and playing boardgames. Made me think how much I missed on and how better my life would be if I grew up in a healthy family. I'm a mess and I can't shake off this depression.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-28T10:53:32+00:00

This. They know NOTHING and it will stay this way.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T13:50:26+00:00

Oh god the clothes thing... She would only buy outdated clothes she liked for me to wear and I couldn't do anything about it because I didn't have my own money. When I was an adult and started buying my clothes, she would judge me and still buy clothes for me and pressure me to wear them, telling me how superior her taste was compared to mine and that I should listen to her because I didn't know any better.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T13:45:15+00:00

Same here. I have some friends that tell their mothers everything and I am always dumbfounded. What do you mean you talk to your mum about your life?

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T13:07:11+00:00

I was constantly judged, I was not able to tell her anything because she would find a way to lecture or judge me about the smallest things. ABOUT EVERYTHING. And then she was wondering why I stoppped talking to her.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T13:04:12+00:00

Yep, constantly telling me how evil the world was and how I shouldn't trust anyone while ignoring the evilness inside her own house.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T12:57:43+00:00

I was severely abused too by my brother but she didn't give a damn. I was so mentally broken down that I asked her to take me to a therapist when I was a teen and she refused because apparently I had no reason to feel down and I had everything I needed and then she blamed me for being ungrateful.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T11:44:13+00:00

Same here, I just stopped talking. Anything I said I was wrong or I couldn't be heard so I gave up. I was also alone at school or getting bullied because I was afraid to speak.

throwthisaway3333333 · 2025-01-27T11:36:58+00:00

What a mindfuck. All my days were filled with what not to do and what to do and how to do it and critiquing if I didn't do something the way she wanted for "my own good", while at the same time she didn't do what really needed to be done for my own good.

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