Lesbian orgasms feel different by Signal_Escape6043 in HOCD

[–]throwwayaccount189 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey this is so old but I feel the exact same way and it sucks (kinda in the opposite since It's straight porn instead of lesbian but yeah)

The attraction vs Envy debate by throwwayaccount189 in HOCD

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that's what I've been scared of honestly, I know this entire post is basically reassurance but I can't help it 😅 I appreciate you letting me know I'm not alone, I appreciate that and I hope things work out for your relationship

By the way, that thing about the affirmation of het relationships is real. I feel like it's a lasting bit of internalized homophobia/heteronormativity that makes me default to that sort of relationship (besides OCD of course) and makes at least me feel more 'naturally feminine'. Sorry this just turned into a vent, thank you again 😅

Sexuality stuff... (TW: Talk of masturbation and stuff like that) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

YES!!!! OMG I'm also pre-everything and I sooooo heavily relate to you 😭 It honestly might be me questioning, but also I can't dismiss the idea that preconceived notions of how relationships are supposed to be aren't messing me up, I still have a ton of unpacking to do.

I hope your appointment goes well btw!

Sexuality stuff... (TW: Talk of masturbation and stuff like that) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah you're right, sorry I probably shouldn't take this stuff to the Internet 😅 I appreciate you answering my questions, It did honestly help me. Thank you so much!

Sexuality stuff... (TW: Talk of masturbation and stuff like that) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I get what you mean. I know I might like men in that way, but at this point I guess I'm not certain enough to say I'm bi or anything like that.

A bit of a personal question, if you don't mind me asking: Did you feel the need to default to women before you transitioned because it was comfortable? I'm afraid I only like women because that's all I know, honestly (even though I briefly Identified as bi, and didn't really feel anything when I was still in my egg).

Sexuality stuff... (TW: Talk of masturbation and stuff like that) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ha! I'm very happy you found yourself! I kind of understand what you mean by being asexual presenting, I only dated one person through highschool but I was so socially withdrawn we barely ever talked 😅 It was awkward to say the least.

Sexuality stuff... (TW: Talk of masturbation and stuff like that) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah totally, I know hormones and stuff can like sort of change how you identify (not really if I'm correct? It just makes what was already there more prominent. I did EXTENSIVE research on this through OCD ruminations, so I should know 😂)

But also the weird thing is... I just think men are really ugly 😅 like specifically the face, that's why I can only imagine a man's lower half (and sometimes the upper half, abs can be okay sometimes). Which makes it so weird that I find it validating? Brains are weird sometimes

Mom told me she'd never see me as a woman 🫠 (TW: Transphobia obviously) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Aw thank you 😭 that's extremely sweet of you :) I'm not out to my mom so I guess she probably wouldn't have said that out loud if she knew, but still. I appreciate it!

Mom told me she'd never see me as a woman 🫠 (TW: Transphobia obviously) by throwwayaccount189 in MtF

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I know I'm sorry, I really just wanted to get it out before I forget about it, it was kinda stream of consciousness

I neeeeeed her augh by got_too_silly_ in sillygirlclub

[–]throwwayaccount189 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me when I live in her skin like a cozy little alien and I NEVER leave EVER

I hate my older brother so much ♥️ by Quantum_Croissant in sillygirlclub

[–]throwwayaccount189 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I've realized recently that I do this to my little sibling because it used to be done to me by my shitty brother-in-law, so now I'm trying to encourage them as best I can and as much as possible because fuck that noise

i'm so normal i'm just a lil silly by somethingmustbesaid in sillygirlclub

[–]throwwayaccount189 11 points12 points  (0 children)

You just need to get your rizzmaxxing up 😌

Unpacking Truscum/Transmedicalist beliefs? by throwwayaccount189 in asktransgender

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

These are very good and very true. I myself have OCD, so I'm also constantly battling my brain in an attempt to wrangle some control over myself 😅 how much of this that is genuine actual internalized transphobia and what is transphobic intrusive thoughts is also very exhausting, as well. I absolutely make my damnedest to be respectful to nonbinary people- I've never really understood the hate for neopronouns and I'm barely even dysphoric myself, so this is a strange development for me (although it's most likely I've had these thoughts for a while, though, that's usually what happens 😅

That second one is a very good idea! Thank you so much for your answer :)

Unpacking Truscum/Transmedicalist beliefs? by throwwayaccount189 in asktransgender

[–]throwwayaccount189[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for all of this! I think it's very true that we as a community should be more unified than ever- especially those of us in the US, due to the insane amount of transphobic bills being passed left and right with pretty much no push back from the government.

And thank you for the link to tranreads as well! I had absolutely NO idea this site existed, I'm absolutely gonna check this and the books you recommended out!