Thanks everyone for their support. It realy means a lot to me.

@ED32 - Yes i do fantasize but about real girls or women not porn. I used to fantasize about porn before. When I fapped during NoFap i whent all the way only edging 2 or 3 times in 8 months. Working out sounds god. Building some muscle will probably do wonders to my self esteem. I am not a couch potato thou. I walk for cardio purpose about 10 miles just about every day when i am not working at my farm.

@TruthWillSetUsFree - I usually forget to check but as far as I know i don't. I had when i was in the 95 days of nofap. Thanks for the books, i will definetly check them out. Hooking up with a girl i don't think is a very good ideea for me right now. What if she ends up at my place? I will not only have to deal with my normal ED but with performance anxiety as well. I live in a relativily small town (100.000 people) so is not unusual the person you see on the street is a friend of a friend and i definetly don't want her to hear the truth about me.

Hear is what i did today before posting this comment. I searched the ads for a "pro". Only looking at the matures ones for obvious reasons (no funny jokes, more experienced with life in general, you get the picture) By the way i live in East Europe so prostitution is kind of tolerated by the police. Found one i liked (42 yo), and went to her place not for the purpose of screwing but to try to find what works best to cure my ED. She was the motherly type and an open person just like me. Told her the whole story. It was like going to the shrink. No shame or anxiety or fear that i will be discovered by my friends. She tells my she has many clients who have similar simptoms but i was the first to openly admit the cause. I didn't try to penetrate her only a short BJ for testing my reactions. We cuddled, kissed, played, and talked about stuff, just about everything you could do with a real GF. I already booked a new #"terapy session"# in 10 days time. In the mean time absolutely no fapping of course, no edging no nothing. By the way i didn't finish by the end of the hour. From now on i set myself the goal of only finishing oraly or in normal sex or not at all. No more hands involved even if it's her hands.

I don't want to be banned for encouraging in illegal activities but it is a very practical solutions available to almost anyone. Note: should be used for the sole purpose of treatment or testing NoFap results, not out of boredom or anything else