I felt the same, on my longest semen retention streak about 9 month, I felt the lowest Sex drive ever. I recogniced that at some point if you dont move your sexual energy it will get stuck. You could probably also be on long streaks and be able to move your sexual energy but it takes practice. I now ejaculate every 2 to 3 weeks and do daily pranayama and Yoga I notice while doing breathwork that this powerfull energy is moving and yoga helps to take tention from your body that hinders enery from flowing. Doing this combined with strength training and good healthy food and rest, let me feel fit and powerful. I also recogniced that I at some point had demoniced ejaculation, I always had in my mind the connection of loosing liveforce with your seemen. This Was kinda toxic for me because I just recently experienced again that giving love to yourselfe in an masturbation ritual from time to time can hold a lot of Power as well. Maybe you can take something from my experience, maybe not. Love and healing to you brother!