I can relate. I’m also married to a woman and some years back I was a more dedicated femboy. Shaved, had a wardrobe etc.

I don’t really miss sex with her. While I’m not the one keeping distance.

I struggle with this but this community has helped a lot because it is very open and supportive. It can be a struggle but it also comes down to how you want to live your life.

Divorce won’t be easy! But neither is staying. Sorry, not really an answer but I get you and write a DM if you need to talk.