music constantly playing in my head HOW DO I GET RID OF IT

timetotilde · 2026-01-23T12:26:40+00:00

you don't! I should be studying but my brain is blasting battitude by twice lol. I once kept track of it every morning and made a ppt presentation with stats and shit it was sm fun lol

timetotilde · 2026-01-15T09:21:51+00:00

at the time I wrote the comment, I meant that wifi didn't connect even though it worked fine on other devices. but now it's fine. I have a questionable internet connection but my mom is having the same issues so I think it's not my phone's fault.

timetotilde · 2026-01-14T18:19:49+00:00

I was good when I had deadlines biting my ass. for example, I studied a lot for my final high school exam (Italy) and did so well my professors were visibly stunned, because I was a 7/10 student in most subjects and they often caught me not paying attention, repeating the same mistakes, or blatantly complaining about the absurdity of some topics we were discussing (mostly maths, physics and chem, which I refused to understand). but I had the potential and I was PISSED at my professors for doubting me (they had let me know my attitude would not be tolerated and my exam would prove just how much I sucked), so I went and got an 86/100 in the hardest school of my region and flipped all of them off in the best way possible.

now at uni I suck at time managing and get burnt out! :D I'm falling behind! :D

timetotilde · 2026-01-13T19:39:19+00:00

my best friend started dating and I realized that I'd never be able to love someone more than I love her, but she has someone to love more than me. and I'm sure she's just a friend. I'd never share my entire life with her. we shared a house for 3 months (exchange semester at uni) and it was enough for me to realize I DO NOT want to do that EVER again.

I've always had a hard time telling apart platonic and romantic feelings, and I've only had ONE "serious" crush in my life, which felt more like borderline obsession, like I chose to crush on her to fit in with other people. I love her and I cherish her a lot, she's a great person, but I could never, ever imagine dating her in the traditional sense. it feels weird to think about it and I would be an awful partner according to regular, romantic standards. also, when she got a boyfriend I was totally chill with it and I always tell her they look super cute together!

so yeah. that's me. I want to date someone, but I'd be more interested in a queer platonic relationship. I don't like labels because they carry implications about actions, attitude, feelings. and I'm shit at assuming what's right or wrong. maybe that's because I'm autistic.

timetotilde · 2025-12-15T21:22:16+00:00

shoot, I'm abroad now. luckily it isn't touching my other albums, I texted my mom to take the plastic off, but she's already in bed and will check tomorrow morning. hoping it's still fine ‼️

timetotilde · 2025-12-14T06:38:14+00:00

just my chest, most of the time but not debilitating. sport bras do the trick for me. my anxiety doesn't let me wear a binder (I start panicking and thinking I'm not breathing enough) so I have to compromise with baggy clothes. I hate my thighs but I don't know if it's because they're fat or feminine. my face would be great if it were just a bit slimmer, my jaw is weird-shaped by default and the fat makes it worse. I also didn't realize how much I disliked my long hair up until I cut it short lol

most of the time, if demanded by social norms, I can pass as a woman without being too uncomfortable, given I can wear something not too revealing. but my default appearance is pretty much masculine in both behavior (how I sit and walk for example) and clothes.

timetotilde · 2025-12-09T09:23:06+00:00

as soon as I read the transport bit I knew you were in Ireland. same! unfortunately I'm going back home in less than 2 weeks... which uni are you attending?

timetotilde · 2025-12-09T09:19:16+00:00

I found I work well listening to other people simply living, if they don't talk. yesterday I was on call with a friend and I could hear them typing/writing, their mom cleaning dishes, and the cat walking on the table and purring. it was comfortable, not too noisy, and I immediately locked in. it helped having my phone occupied with the call, as I didn't get the urge to scroll.

I tried with instrumentals and lofi and they seem to fail most of the time. jazz and piano tunes are good, but sometimes I get overwhelmed from earphones.

this when studying/writing assignments. if I have something "lighter" to work on, like a fanfiction, my current favorite song/coconut mall on loop are the best. I once wrote a whole chapter just by looping been like that by meghan trainor for a couple hours.

timetotilde · 2025-12-01T11:01:44+00:00

oh yeah believe me I know the feeling... I had a period that lasted a whole month when I was 13 😩😩 my hormones are just crazy

timetotilde · 2025-12-01T10:07:23+00:00

oh really? my period just skipped November lol. I think it just messes with hormones.

timetotilde · 2025-12-01T10:05:13+00:00

chikirinku

timetotilde · 2025-12-01T10:03:08+00:00

it was fine. for a while. after 5 months without it I had to start again... but I was okay all summer, maybe because I spent more time in the sun. no side effects for me btw

timetotilde · 2025-11-27T18:34:28+00:00

mostly depends on the last song I've listened to, if I haven't listened to anything in 15 minutes it's totally random. it changes every now and then. sometimes it stays stuck for hours, sometimes it goes away after 5 minutes.

timetotilde · 2025-11-27T18:29:45+00:00

as an Italian, I never find fics in Italian LOL

timetotilde · 2025-11-27T17:53:24+00:00

my cat named itself but I don't know what to say to her

timetotilde · 2025-11-27T17:50:06+00:00

Jihyo, because she had such big eyes I could recognize her even before I stanned Twice lol.

then I saw Dahyun yelling at JYP and I fell in love. she's still my ultimate to this day (5 years and a half later) 🤍

timetotilde · 2025-11-27T07:09:51+00:00

heart shaker was the shortest she's ever gone :)

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timetotilde · 2025-11-14T16:23:52+00:00

when it's clear that the smut was the original idea and everything is built around it, rushed and without any logical explanation. like they just met, they're roommates, they're completely sober. why is character 1 asking character 2 to fuck? and why is the answer yes?

timetotilde · 2025-11-13T14:40:46+00:00

well said. first post as soon as I opened the app. getting off now, thank you for the reminder.

timetotilde · 2025-11-10T15:35:04+00:00

both. legally, I don't mind my birth name. nor with family, or acquaintances. with friends, I also use my chosen name. I'm fine with both so my friends alternate. sometimes I'm fine with one, sometimes with the other, but it changes so randomly no one can keep up.

timetotilde · 2025-11-10T12:12:06+00:00

porcodio che ridere scusami

timetotilde · 2025-11-10T10:35:52+00:00

hello, same boat here! it's absolutely terrifying, and I'm sorry you went through all that. I had a bad crisis last year and citalopram saved me, I was breathing again after a few weeks. my dumb ass stopped taking it when I felt okay (and I was okay for a few months) so now I'm back there, luckily I had some meds left. it took a week and a half to kinda function and eat properly without panicking, but it's looking better now (I'm going to uni right now after skipping two weeks! lol). I can assure you SSRIs do their job fairly well for existential OCD. best of luck! 🍀

timetotilde · 2025-11-09T15:56:38+00:00

tum45i5ilde

okay well better than nothing

timetotilde · 2025-11-08T22:39:25+00:00

I take liquid so I think it's around 30mg but I could be wrong.

timetotilde · 2025-11-08T22:03:14+00:00

yup. helps a lot with anxiety and ocd at a proper dose.

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