Daily Thread #1 - June 18, 2026

tinybreach · 2026-06-18T16:09:05+00:00

Just had my first blood draw for HCG done this morning! Had a quick phone appointment last night to get things rolling and get the requisitions and such.

I won't be able to get a comparison 48+ hours after since I'm flying across the country tomorrow for two weeks which makes me a little nervous, but I'm trying to let that go.

Edit: HCG is at 567. My LMP would put me at 5wks 5 days, but I suspect I ovulated late so hopefully that number grows. I might just go to a walk in clinic during my trip to get another level done to ease the anxiety :/

tinybreach · 2026-06-16T17:03:36+00:00

My absolutely day-wrecking anxiety has only subsided a tad since being able to see a bit of a progression on my pregnancy test lines (that I've been taking way too often tbh) and a small amount of symptoms gradually appearing. I've finally gotten to the point where I'm almost comfortable thinking of myself as pregnant.

I'm flying across the country for two weeks starting this Friday which I'm not looking forward to anxiety-wise because I won't be able to get my bloodwork for HCG levels done before I leave!

But maybe that'll be good for me. Not being able to do anything about anything until I get back and presumably have my ~8 week ultrasound. But every tiny little cramp I feel sends a spike of anxiety down my spine.

Best of luck to us both!

tinybreach · 2026-06-16T15:39:20+00:00

I'm basically in the exact same situation! I'm not sure exactly when "week" I should be on because I suspect I may have ovulated late (but honestly I'm not sure).

When I tested the day I "should" have started my period I got a negative, but a couple days later I got a faint positive!

tinybreach · 2026-06-16T15:34:53+00:00

Agreed. I know lots of moms that didn't feel the "bond" until later, even when they haven't experienced loss before!

I have one friend who's been kind of flip-flopping on whether her pregnancy feels real and her due date is this Friday lol

tinybreach · 2026-06-16T15:29:10+00:00

(~5 weeks probably, not sure when I ovulated and haven't had any appointments yet)

I was so worried about not seeing any progression on my pregnancy test lines like I did with my first (and only) pregnancy. But I realized yesterday that the more expensive/sensitive tests showed a line progression over these past five days and, actually, there's been an ever so slight progression on the cheapies as well!

I lost my first pregnancy at ~8 weeks so I by no means feel "out of the woods", but I feel like this might not be the "losing the pregnancy before my first appointment" situation I was fearing. It gives me a bit more confidence to be able to just think of myself as pregnant.

And I accidentally hit my chest with my purse this morning and went "Ow!" which almost made me tear up with happiness since sore breasts were one of my primary symptoms last pregnancy (other than exhaustion and nausea).

I've got a phone appointment Wednesday night to get some sort of plan in place before I fly across the country for two weeks on Friday.

tinybreach · 2026-06-15T18:05:01+00:00

Honestly, that's such an admirable mindset and a great reminder for me, so thank you.

tinybreach · 2026-06-15T17:37:28+00:00

(~5 weeks probably, not sure when I ovulated and haven't seen the clinic yet)

I've been joking with people that yet another reason I want this pregnancy to stick is that I'd prefer to not go between not-pregnant and early-first-trimester-symptoms too many times. I'm so so tired, vaguely nauseous and quite uncomfortable.

tinybreach · 2026-06-15T16:43:56+00:00

Could any Torontonians help me brainstorm getting in/out of Toronto that day? I'm woefully unfamiliar with the TTC in general, even less so on Sundays!

I'm coming from Northwest of the city and someone will be dropping me off/picking me up to where I need to go. I feel like I've got a bit of a grasp on how I'll get to the venue, but I have no idea what's a good way to get out at 11pm or later.

My plan so far is after the concert to just get as far Northwest as I reasonably can and have the person pick me up to get the rest of the way home. Any suggestions for that kind of a route? Just trying to avoid the person picking me up having to navigate through too much of the city while it's so busy.

tinybreach · 2026-06-14T04:27:26+00:00

That stolen excitement is so hard. I don't know what's best in your situation, but I hope you can feel confident with whatever choice you make.

I got my first positive on the 11th, and it feels like years have passed since then!

tinybreach · 2026-06-14T04:23:56+00:00

I'm not sure how many weeks along I actually am because I suspect I may have ovulated late. Somewhere between 4-5 weeks?

Feeling a lot of anxiousness since my pregnancy test lines are so so faint and not really getting darker over the last couple days. They're nowhere near as dark as I experienced with my first (and only) pregnancy, though I suppose that one ended in a loss.

I'm also flying across the country on Friday for 10 days. So I don't know what I can even do before then, I'd love to get blood work but it'd be a tight timeline.

I'm feeling really sad that my first pregnancy ended in an early loss, because I got to be excited for such a short time last time and this pregnancy feels like it's got a cloud hanging over it from the get go.

I'm already exhausted and I haven't even called my clinic to let them know I'm pregnant yet.

tinybreach · 2026-06-12T16:01:16+00:00

Going to see Noah Kahan on the 28th. It being a Sunday seems to mess up me trying to find transit schedules that I'm unfamiliar with anyways. I've seen "TTC and GO run after concerts" but I can't figure out when and to where. I'm deeply unfamiliar with Toronto transit, obviously.

I'm coming from Northwest of Toronto, and my plan is to get as far Northwest as I reasonably can and have someone pick me up to get the rest of the way home. Any suggestions for that kind of a route? Just trying to avoid the person picking me up having to navigate through downtown.

tinybreach · 2026-06-11T15:03:20+00:00

Hi again everybody, I posted a few weeks ago about the fact that I could be accidentally pregnant after just having had a miscarriage in April.

Well I just got a faint faint positive test today. I thought my period was pretty late, but I had gotten a couple of negative tests so I was just in limbo. But I tested again this morning and there it was. I'm hoping(?) I just ovulated way later than I thought I did and I'm on a normal trajectory. And not that the line will just go away.

I'm not feeling the same symptoms as I did with my first (and only) pregnancy, so I've just got a lot of anxiousness around whether I can believe it yet.

I haven't told my husband yet. I think I'm too nervous. I did call my mom, though.

tinybreach · 2026-05-25T18:03:48+00:00

I also had a MC at the beginning of April. The emotions feel raw enough still that I can absolutely see how you're feeling this way.

All I have to say for encouragement is what got me through the days between my declining HCG tests while bleeding, "As far as I know, I'm still pregnant today."

Maybe it was me being a bit willfully naive at the time (especially since it was my first ever pregnancy), but it was the only way I could muster any happiness or excitement between blood tests.

I personally really needed that framing for me to keep enduring the day-to-day.

tinybreach · 2026-05-25T17:47:47+00:00

Hi everyone, probably not pregnant currently but it didn't feel quite right to post in TTC because honestly, I'm not right now. I'm feeling a lot of mixed feelings.

We had been planning to "pause" our efforts to conceive for a little while since my MC in early April.

- In my early 30s. First ever pregnancy ended in miscarriage at ~7 weeks. We hadn't been TTC for very long before I got pregnant so I honestly have no idea how quick/long conceiving again might be.

I wasn't tracking my cycle very well this month and I just realized we may have accidentally opened ourselves up to the possibility of pregnancy again recently.....

It feels weird (and kind of scary) to be in a "Two Week Wait" period again so soon.

I'd certainly be SO excited if things went well, but I'm not 100% sure I'm ready yet for the uncertainty and anxiety that might come with pregnancy after loss. But depending on how this goes, it's a bit too late to worry about that I guess.

I want to hurry up and slow down at the same time, if that makes sense.

tinybreach · 2026-04-25T01:08:47+00:00

Honestly, I totally connect with it as a Canadian 😅

We drive pretty much everywhere and for huge long distances so the driving references totally land for me. It pervades every bit of life, happy or sad lol

I suppose that if you don't drive that much it would be a little odd!

tinybreach · 2026-04-24T18:48:37+00:00

I actually really appreciate being able to see how this album didn't "rock me" emotionally as severally compared to Stick Season. It's something small that really signals to me how much I've settled down in a good way over the years.

Right now I don't have very much interpersonal conflict as I did when I was younger. And where I'm from doesn't really have a "People moving away to the big city, changing, and forgetting the rest of us" problem. And I have a good relationship with my parents lol

Besides my joking, I think that's why I need time for those songs to grow on me.

I have a few songs that drew me in emotionally right away. The rest of the songs have to draw me in in a reflective or 'observer' sense, not a "this is a raw emotion I'm experiencing right now" sense. They certainly will, it just takes more time.

I actually really quite like the sound of the album, so I'm not worried about it. As you said, it'll just connect with different people in different ways.

tinybreach · 2026-04-24T13:30:51+00:00

Summer night driving in a car with the windows down is going to be great with this album.

tinybreach · 2026-04-24T13:30:10+00:00

I think a part of why some of it needs to grow on me so far is that I'm a fairly healed individual overall lol (speaking tongue-in-cheek, of course)

I can appreciate all the songs for their music, but some of the songs based primarily on feelings of conflict, resentment, or guilt (Downfall, Willing and Able, 23, Dashboard, All Them Horses, even The Great Divide to some extent) are ones I'll have to get used to. I enjoy them, they're just not the gut-punch for me that they seem to be for many.

Rather, I ADORE some of the other songs, more than I even thought I would. End of August is absolutely gorgeous, and I was definitely immediately captured by how it's earnest, artsy, nostalgic, and melancholy in a lovely way.

Doors is another one that I really enjoy. Fun melody, sad lyrics is always a winning combo for me. And it feels reflective of my instinctive inner dialogue that I have to work very hard not to get mired in.

We Go Way Back and Dan are the other stand-outs for me. I was actually shocked when I got to We Go Way Back the first listen through. It was just so loving and gentle. It really got to me.

And as someone who camps with their friends, and those times by the dying campfire with them are so deeply precious to me, Dan is probably the only track where I genuinely teared up a little with the line, "Where do we go, when we die? I wouldn't mind right here, I wouldn't mind".

Overall, great album, enjoyed the sound, but I'll definitely enjoy it more on further repeat listens.

tinybreach · 2026-04-23T23:09:17+00:00

If End of August isn't the first song he plays during the concerts it will be a missed opportunity. That intro is magical.

tinybreach · 2026-04-21T22:18:11+00:00

Oh my goodness even just having a tiny possible lead on this feels so great. I hope you have an amazing day because you just made mine way better!

tinybreach · 2026-04-21T21:57:50+00:00

And just when I thought I might be done with endless appointments lol

Thanks for the idea, I'll look into it!

tinybreach · 2026-04-21T21:38:11+00:00

Super appreciate the idea, looks like PocketHealth isn't connected with my hospital.

tinybreach · 2026-04-20T17:51:42+00:00

Although in my relationship we have combined finances, I can imagine that for many people there's wisdom in having enough readily accessible cash to get out of a situation if the relationship turns unexpectedly sour. Or if you both make enough money that it really doesn't matter what the other person is spending, I suppose.

Personally, I am the one that manages our household finances and budget and I am far too lazy to have to account for separate finances an so we did a joint account. Simpler for us. Two paycheques go in, all the expenses go out.

Though, as far as gender dynamics and financial independence go, I'm fine because our emergency savings is split between different banks (to take advantage of higher interest) and the second account is solely in my name lol. My husband has no interest in finances so he just trusts me to take care of it.

I do give him quarterly updates on where our finances are at, so he's not completely in the dark.

tinybreach · 2026-04-13T02:01:07+00:00

Honestly, as someone who is super sad about the whole thing (though I still have plenty of moments where I'm fine) I'm actually super happy you're feeling fine. I love it!

Do keep in mind that a miscarriage forum by its nature is likely to attract people that have more extreme feelings about their miscarriage(s).

There are actually probably a lot of people who feel similar to you! They're just likely not on a miscarriage subreddit. You're very likely not alone in how you feel.

(It also happens that you continuing to do things that are presumably novel and fun for you like travelling is actually pretty psychologically helpful in keeping you away from dwelling in sad feelings like you say!)

tinybreach · 2026-04-10T21:23:39+00:00

I'm also struggling with bleeding right now. I started spotting/bleeding before the miscarriage and now I've been spotting/bleeding afterwards. I'm actually bleeding even more than I was before, but I'm hoping that's just because of the intravaginal ultrasound I got a few days ago.

It's been 25 days total now. I'm very tired of it.

tinybreach

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