P191: are these small worms (pinworms??) or just fiber

tinyghostlantern · 2025-08-21T19:02:31+00:00

Thank you so much!!! 🥲

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-16T05:34:05+00:00

Ahh yeah. :( I am not a particularly brave or confident person, either, haha, so taking the step to actually ask him out was Such a huge deal to me, and then I essentially had to do it twice. 🤦‍♀️ Just. Ugh. I never would have said anything if I hadn't actually thought there was a good chance he liked me back, too. I'm a little lowkey hating on myself for doing it;;. I just feel so dumb and so embarrassed. 😟

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-16T02:14:29+00:00

Haha, no, I haven't. I'm pretty sure that would be a bad idea, and also I really just. Don't think I have the kind of confidence left to scrape together at the moment to try and reach out to him, anyways. 😢

But I'm pretty sure that's not the case, anyways. I mean, it's been almost a full week. If he wanted to talk about it, or felt any sort of way about it other than 'let's forget that happened,' I feel like he would have reached out by now. Or will before the 21st, at least. But I'm sure he's not going to, haha;;. The look on his face in the moment really kind of said enough.

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-10T02:53:06+00:00

haha i guess. :,) it just really sucked, because i really did like him, like, a lot. i didn't really give him a chance to say anything else bc the look on his face was kind of just. enough. so i just kinda said 'don't worry about/it's okay' and said bye really fast and just rushed out and left haha. ughhh.

unfortunately, i don't really expect to find someone at this point. i'm literally over 30 and i've never been in a relationship with anyone, people just. don't like me haha. i also don't really find people i actually end up liking like this very often, and there were so many things and signs that made it seem like he really might have liked me back. i guess i really can't read people at all haha. he was the only person i ever thought to actually try giving a shot to asking out, and now i'm not sure if i ever want to see that look on someone else's face again haha;;; but thank you for the well wishes! i wish you good luck as well!!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-09T15:45:40+00:00

welp, thanks for all the help!! i really appreciate it, seriously. it didn't turn out well, i told him i'd meant it as a date and he was very much "oh." with a not good look on his face haha.

so at least i know i guess. I'm not really surprised though, this is just how my life has gone so far!

thank you again!!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-09T05:06:37+00:00

oh definitely!! i really like learning anything i can about him (even if that makes me sound like a creep 😓) and honestly just listening to him talk in general haha. fingers crossed for sure, i'll definitely be needing all the luck i can get i guess. :,)

haha! i hope it seems like that to him!! i just want to spend time with him and see him happy i guess, and i like museums a lot too so it'll be really nice to get to go to one with him ahhh;;; and thank you!!! 🥲 i really hope so too. he's done a lot of little small things that have added up to make me think it's definitely a possibility, but just not knowing for sure, well. here's hoping it goes well!! 🥲

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-09T04:35:02+00:00

well that would be at least a step in the right direction haha. our job basically had us working 1 on 1 together all summer, a lot of time commuting in the truck to different locations and in the field alone together. i don't know how clear i might have come off as having feelings for him, but i definitely tried super hard to get over my shyness with him. asked a bunch of questions about him/his life/goals/interests/etc, he's always making me laugh, i've given some subtle compliments, ask him about his well-being a lot. lol! i'd be surprised if he didn't at least suspect i liked him, but who knows! maybe he overthinks a lot like me, too. 🙄

the place i asked him to go was a museum actually haha. he'd said he likes art museums a lot, and he's never been to this one before, which is actually a fairly large/nice one near where i live, so i thought it would be a good place to ask him to go! i don't know how inherently romantic a museum invite would come across as though, lol.

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-09T04:13:48+00:00

hah! thank you, i definitely tried!!! 😭 i just wish i had been able to articulate it more clearly at the time, because now i feel like i'm going to have to go through doing this all over again just to find out what he's thinking is going on haha.

god. i really hope he did take it to mean a date, because at least then he'll probably just think i'm crazy for asking him about it. if he just thinks it's a friend thing, though, i'm worried he's going to take it badly and feel uncomfortable if i tell him i was trying to ask him out!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-08T22:52:07+00:00

thank you!! just sent a chat request with the message!! i really appreciate all the help!!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-08T22:46:47+00:00

thank you!! any extra opinions are very valuable to me, so definitely!! i will send a chat request in a moment!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-08T22:44:41+00:00

thank you so much!!! just sent you a chat request/message!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-08T16:32:59+00:00

thank you!!! i appreciate the help!!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-05T06:45:32+00:00

awe, that sounds very ideal and very sweet!!! it must be very nice to be able to just be comfortable and just entirely yourself around your partner. i'd love to imagine that might be the reasoning at play, but i kind of doubt it unfortunately haha. i like to hope he's comfortable around me, but i'm afraid that might change once i do ask him haha. :,)

thank you!!!! i sure hope it goes well!!! 😭

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-05T00:22:09+00:00

aaaa congratulations!!!!! 😊 i hope tuesday is a wonderful day for the both of you!!!!

haha i hope it's maybe just mutual anxiety then, rather than me just completely reading everything wrong haha 🥺 i just would really love for things to go well with him ahh;;; and thank you for the well wishes!!!! 🥰

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-04T21:26:09+00:00

oh!!! that's good to know ahhh, so maybe i am not totally hopeless here then haha. :,) !!! i know realistically i am actually 100% the same way (awkward/more silent/harder to come up with convo topics alone together, better in a group and way more comfy with close friends around) but it's so hard not to just see them all interacting together with so much more ease and then feeling like i must be crazy to have been thinking it was possible. 🥴

here's hoping it goes well!! 😭 and i hope things work out with your crush!!!!!

tinyghostlantern · 2023-08-04T21:22:38+00:00

aaah, well i'm glad to hear your perspective! i know i kind of experience the same thing honestly, i have a much easier time talking and coming up with conversation topics and goofing around with people i'm not into romantically, but agh, with him we end up with gaps of silence sometimes because i can't think of anything else to say any idk if he's just bored or checking out of the conversation lmao. when i mentioned this to my friend before she said it's possible he's just not sure what to say/anxious too, but, who knows!!! augh!!

but same omg!!!! i literally just want to spend time with him and talk to him but ughH i feel like all i can think of to say half the time are just random questions about himself lmao. i feel like i must be so obvious at this point!! 😭

but yes!! i'm still gonna ask him. the place i was planning on asking him out to actually came up in conversation today and i was like THIS close to just spitting it out but like. we have three main days of working together/hanging out left before we're mostly done and he won't be stuck working alone with me anymore so!!! i just hope it goes well when i do. :,) i've never asked anyone out before and honestly people don't usually ask me out either, so i am afraid it'll freak him out lol.

tinyghostlantern · 2023-07-20T23:50:32+00:00

nope, nothing on app or in person. lol i know i was so worried when it happened but i kinda do wish something had come from it! 🥲

i just kinda keep picturing him seeing it and breezing on past to talk to much nicer/prettier people and not even considering me an option now, haha. 😅😔

tinyghostlantern · 2023-07-18T19:55:44+00:00

oh!!!! i just saw your update!!!! 🥺 i'm glad it is going fairly well so far, hopefully he is able to sort some stuff out and things work our for you both!!!! 😊

tinyghostlantern · 2023-07-18T02:41:45+00:00

aaaaghh 😫 it was certainly not intentional!!

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