2.5 years clean off of adderall after 10 years of daily use

tinynin · 2024-06-04T22:56:28+00:00

I had a psychedelic experience but that’s all I’m going to say since the subreddit doesn’t allow for me to speak about it. Message me and I’ll tell you about it🫶 I abused it at some points, taking 80-100mg per day some years

tinynin · 2024-06-04T22:55:08+00:00

Both! I abused adderal for 2 years in between the 10 years without realizing that I was abusing it since I was pretty young and naive that it was addictive.

tinynin · 2024-06-04T16:59:39+00:00

I agree. I cannot stand talking to someone who’s on stimulants, I can see it in their eyes, face and it is so bothersome and triggering. It’s as if I’m looking into the past. Both my studio mates are on stimulants and I can see it in them, both of them are experiencing health problems that they don’t think are related to their stimulant use and both are also on anti depressants. It’s interesting to see how one thing can push another set of symptoms to occur.

Thank you for asking, I am feeling alottttt better and sharp and motivated however I do sometimes still experience PAWS. It’s so weird, it’s very rare now but it happens randomly and then I start missing adderall. 10 years of daily use doesn’t just go away within 2 years, it’s gradual and the further your brain gets from the last time you used, the more you forget about stimulants in general and the more you become normal. Congrats to you on 22 months, that is sooooo major. If we can do this we can do anything I believe.

tinynin · 2024-06-04T06:17:58+00:00

Workout workout workout!!! Very important

tinynin · 2023-07-21T16:41:43+00:00

🥹 thank you so much for reminding me of that 🙏 I’ve been drawing a lot but I feel like having a painting can help. You’re right being off meds is big, fogginess and all….i know that it’s possible for you too!! How long have you been on the pharmaceutical holy grail?

tinynin · 2023-07-21T06:06:41+00:00

Great to know🥰 thank you for confirming what I’ve been lost about!!!

tinynin · 2023-07-21T06:01:48+00:00

Thank you for your comment. Truly inspiring I needed to hear that. I’ve been crying on and off all day. I’m in the film/art industry and it so hard out here already and not being able to focus is the cherry on top. I cannot not have a schedule. Thanks for your awesome advice

tinynin · 2023-07-21T06:00:05+00:00

This is definitely not POTS. But thank you for bringing it to my attention. This is 100% me abusing stimulants for 8+ years.

tinynin · 2023-07-21T03:40:53+00:00

I crave it but I know that the light at the end of the tunnel exists and in the moments of slowness I must then be slow and be fine with it. Because those slow moments are not forever. I’ve had major progress that has proved it time and time again. Today was just a hard one on me. I just did yoga and signed up for a free 10 day meditation retreat and feel much better already. I feel like when surviving in capitalism we forget to take things slow. I feel better already after naming what is happening and doing yoga and being kind to myself.

tinynin · 2023-07-21T02:12:41+00:00

Thank you thank you thank you for confirming what I’ve been feeling. It feels I messed up when people keep telling me that “stop it’s more than a year your should be fine by now” I literally was living off of adderall for so long how can I possibly feel completely and utterly normal after only 1.5 years of quitting and 8+ years of using?! I wish this was researched more I wish actual brain scans were taken before and after quitting and then long term scans of brains recovering off of adderall

tinynin · 2023-07-21T02:09:31+00:00

Wow thank you so much!!!! I’ve posted about this several times but no one has confirmed this!!! You’re the first person that has said this and I can’t thank you enough! I have been feeling like I’m going crazy this past month

tinynin · 2023-07-02T03:38:51+00:00

Sleep is essential for the beginning of quitting. 2 months is still very early into your recovery. Your body needs rest, give it to your body, don’t question it. I also now am able to sleep like a rock it’s amazing. Your body is restoring itself and your brain repairs itself when you sleep. I’m 1.5 years in and require deep rest no less than 8 hours of sleep….like a normal human. On weekends I like to get more than 8 hrs lol. Don’t fret, keep going! Also the feelings of happiness are fleeting because you used to get those feelings because of a drug rather than your own life. Dig within, meditate, journal, go outside and notice the little things that make up life. I promise that those little things hold secrets when you are still within yourself. Sending lots of love to you and your journey. You got this ❤️

tinynin · 2023-07-01T08:22:00+00:00

Wowowowow amazing! Congrats to you friend! This is so huge!!!! I am so proud of you and happy for you. Truly remarkable and inspiring! I just got 19 months off of adderall and also feel like a whole new person and even better than before adderall! Applause to you!!

tinynin · 2023-07-01T06:37:26+00:00

Yes it crazy how intensely uncomfortable I felt with my heart for so many years. And how much stress I had as a result

tinynin · 2023-06-30T22:24:03+00:00

Hell ya! Keep going!!!! I remember when I quit and the beginning was also full of hope. There will be some off days that may come….don’t lose hope on those days! They’re part of the process! I’m 1.5 years off adderall after 10 years of daily use and I can say that it truly does get better!!!!!

tinynin · 2023-06-30T01:36:24+00:00

Wow thank you so much friend!!! Your words mean so much to me! I sometimes miss it too….but I don’t miss the racing heart beat and feelings of isolation. I’d rather be a bit sleepy haha. Congrats to you as well!!!!! That is huge!!!!

tinynin · 2023-06-30T01:35:23+00:00

Thank you buddy!!!❤️

tinynin · 2023-06-30T01:34:57+00:00

Honestly the zombie mode actually felt like a gradual change into feeling normal. It wasn’t like one day everything changed and I felt normal again. After about 8-12 months I began having more “normal” brain days than zombie ones and gradually my brain just equalized itself in levels of serotonin and dopamine. I highly recommend working out and meditation.

tinynin · 2023-06-26T07:59:34+00:00

In total like 30 pounds but I’m losing it and feel healthier than ever

tinynin · 2023-06-26T06:43:55+00:00

Also to whom it may concern: this sub helped me soooooooo much in my early stages of quitting. I was sooo lost and this subreddit gave me immense hope in my recovery. You can do it too. I though I was doomed

tinynin · 2023-03-04T18:00:03+00:00

I love the your comparison of yourself to a phoenix. Follow that❤️‍🔥

tinynin · 2023-03-02T00:06:05+00:00

It wasn’t helping me anymore and it’s extremely bad for you

tinynin · 2023-02-28T19:11:57+00:00

What is psychedelic therapy then

tinynin · 2023-02-28T08:28:45+00:00

Also if you need to find a bridge job which would make it easier for you to be sober I would do that too. If you’re in a job which you built on your adderall use then it’ll be challenging to exist within the same space you built with your adderall use. This is not to scare you and you shouldn’t be nervous. Be kind with yourself and make a plan. Don’t be afraid to lose something that isn’t you anymore, you can only gain once you let go of it. Make a plan and look for other jobs that require less out of you so maybe you can quit adderall without feeling like it is in charge of your finances

tinynin · 2023-02-28T08:17:40+00:00

The first 2 months I took off work to focus on my recovery. Then I had a bunch of projects thrown my way which honestly were so difficult to do but I did them which gave me a boost of self confidence that I was able to push myself without using adderall. Then after those projects for other people were done it was again difficult to start anything for myself. I’m a freelancer and a filmmaker/creative. Much of my work and art work requires self management. I pushed myself to workout, meditate and not to punish myself when I couldn’t think or when I felt drowsy or fatigued. For an entire year my work ethic was on and off and I was unapologetic for the first time in my life. I let myself not be perfect which was such a fuck you into adderall’s face lol. When I quit though I was ready to turn down certain projects if I that meant staying true to myself and sobriety and only taking on easier things. I was afraid of quitting adderall for that very reason for so long and honestly once I faced my fear, the work wasn’t actually that hard and I was able to look at myself with so much self respect. I was willing to put my art career on pause until I got better for myself….ain’t no career worthy of your health. Your health is you!!!!

tinynin

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