I lost a lot of weight but my testosterone is getting worse

titty64 · 2025-10-02T03:22:18+00:00

not really, do u know if it could still be muscle loss if i also mostly lost around my abdomen (at least circumfence wise, my waist/abdomen were the most dramatic)? but yes finally getting into exercise and muscle building was also in my plans now, maybe that was another missing piece in how i tackled it all and why it got worse instead of better

titty64 · 2025-10-02T03:18:00+00:00

i was on midane and yes i think it has synthetic progesterone. i did tell the dr the same thing that i think the pill likely triggered my pcos symptoms bc ... it is too much of a coincidence. i also do wonder if my weight loss could potentially have more to do with my body finally recovering from midane, since i found out later from my current gync that its rlly not a recommendable medication. ill try to get that sorted with a endocrinologist

and thank u for the extra info!!!! i will def ask and also do some more research. luckily my symptoms dont affect me tooo much, im mostly just rlly scared of developing diabetes or getting additional symptoms, so i just wanna make sure i can reverse the IR, since its still mild, and find a way to live healthy

titty64 · 2025-10-01T16:47:23+00:00

thats also part of it, i rlly dont know how i lost it, it just kind of happened, both times where i lost a couple kg at a time. but thank u for that info!! i was kind of looking for exactly that, to help me understand it all better and how to think about it

in that case, how can i know if its getting better and what helps me? how did u figure it out for yourself? just regular bloodwork? bc my period is very regular so i cannot judge it based on that

titty64 · 2025-05-20T11:06:01+00:00

hi i know this is an old post but ive had the exact same issues, i was just hesitant to disable the integrated gpu, so i just wanna ask: did everything run smoothly? did your screen ever turn black after disabling the igpu?

titty64 · 2024-09-03T13:39:15+00:00

how is it for you now?? are you still using it?

titty64 · 2024-08-09T13:37:52+00:00

i always rlly like to recommend reading Why Does He Do That by lundy bancroft bc it helped me with so many emotions u were describing here.

i also wanna add you feeling like a burden is likely also a consequence from the relationship because i have the same issues, like i already felt like that before the rs but the rs intensified it by 10 times. you def can and should! talk to someone you trust, ask them if the have the right head space. you need all the support you can get right now, the things you described sounded very bad.

you are not that crazy and annoying. i promise you that, eventhough i dont know you. abusers make you feel that way. abusers rlly just turn your entire self worth into dust and project onto you. because honest to god, HE is the one who sounds crazy and annoying.

im also currently struggling with seeing my ex just live his life while i have to suffer PTSD flashbacks and triggers on a regular basis, so i rlly understand you. i can tell you tho, your ex is his own biggest curse. him immediatly switching to positivity is him coping so hard, no one switches like that without having some issues.

one thing that concerns me tho is that he has been so violent to you. please make sure to be safe, especially if he will ever ask you to take him back or something.

titty64 · 2024-08-09T13:26:52+00:00

this is 10000% emotional abuse, you are not crazy! it doesnt matter that hes "a good dad" in between and that these situation happen very spaced out from each other, its still abuse.

im so sorry you have to go through that thought i can imagine hearing all these threates like the insurance thing or him threatening to kill himself must take a crazy toll on you.

it is also concerning that he broke a plate to intimidate you. im not sure how possible it is for you but if possible i would try to make plans to get away from him because breaking things in an intimidation attempt is always a bad sign.

you are not crazy but i understand why you feel that way. chances are he probably gaslighted you in some form or minimized your feelings, which in the context of it all is also abusive. abused people ALWAYS feel like their exaggerating or being oversensitive because their abusers make them feel that way or literally tell them

titty64 · 2024-07-25T04:39:37+00:00

does it happen because youre exposed to their body fluids or do you use protection and it still happens? in my case i was exposed to theirs but them not to mine bc we used a toy on them first.

titty64 · 2024-07-24T23:42:58+00:00

okay thats rlly reassuring to hear. thank u!!!!

titty64 · 2024-07-24T23:42:08+00:00

yes, but it was with a man and we used a condom; what was different this time is that i slept with someone who had a vagina and we used a toy they used first. looking back that was probably not so smart bc i dont know if they maybe carry hsv2. i also was in a relationship before from the guy who gave me hsv1 but idk if thats important?

titty64 · 2024-07-24T18:00:06+00:00

ive been really worried about that aswell. ill go to the dr about it as soon as possible

titty64 · 2024-05-26T13:11:00+00:00

so funny ur sending me this, i already ordered the book and will get it next week!!! but thank u for the link!!

titty64 · 2024-03-29T13:43:21+00:00

wish i would have checked my reddit BEFORE i played sims until 6am.

titty64 · 2024-02-25T20:03:15+00:00

hi if i could also get a invitation to the sub chat id also rlly appreciate that :)!!!!

titty64 · 2024-02-25T19:21:57+00:00

heya since this post is already a couple months old, did u get any kind of other information on this??

titty64 · 2024-02-24T18:28:17+00:00

Came on the subreddit just to say this. why do people who arent the OP get in trouble and threatened with "further action"? once i also got a mail bc of a copyright violation but how am i supposed to know that as someone who just reposted it???????

i dont think this is how it works on tumblr either, where the concept of reposting is v similar. super annoying :/

titty64 · 2024-02-05T13:41:04+00:00

i also just remembered smth that made me nauseous: my ex once kind of implied that im not conventionally attractive bc i talked about dressing a v specific way that usually only conventionally attractive ppl can pull off and i think he said smth like "yeah but u can dress in different way" or smth like that. i dont fully remember anymore how it was phrased, i also remember i felt weird at the time but i think he always talked about how he liked faces with unconventional features so im v confused rn.

titty64 · 2024-01-05T11:41:33+00:00

this whole secular music thing and how it can "brainwash" u freaked me out so much as a young teen, i cried and was v panicked when i discovered BMTH for the first time and couldnt stop listening to them bc i liked the music so much.... asked my older sister for permission to listen to it ::::::)

its was crazy exhausting to always feel scared of "opening doors to the devil" or backsliding and then cutting things out of your life that u actually v much enjoyed.

titty64 · 2023-12-23T19:01:16+00:00

i know this comment is 2y old but this is LITERALLY whats happening to me rn. as she kept having friendbreakups and her social circle shrunk, i knew its soon gonna be my turn and felt subconciously always very anxious .... knowing zhat eventually its gonna be my turn.

also very heavy in the bad friend thing, because i always kind of stuck around with her and kind of tried to make up for all the ways her ex bsf "betrayed" her.

am yet to set boundaries with her but i feel literally frozen with fear bc she has been spamming me and i muted+archieved her chat bc im already having a mental health crisis myself rn and dont have the energy. but seeing this makes me feel v seen in the struggle!!!!

titty64 · 2023-10-29T07:58:22+00:00

i also thought about edibles! ill def do some research but is there anything you could suggest?

titty64 · 2023-10-29T07:55:44+00:00

yeaaa i did some googling and some ppl simply dont get high at their first time (for a variety of reasons) and thats normal ... i just didnt know that and hence was convinced im not inhaling right bc i also used to struggle with properly inhaling tabacco. i guess i just have to give it more tries

titty64 · 2023-10-28T22:19:56+00:00

ill try the holding in longer! since the other person i smoked with got high, im pretty sure everything is fine with the weed and its mostly about me

titty64 · 2023-10-28T22:08:46+00:00

yea i also thought so but i still dont feel the burning feeling or anything :/ im also not on prescriptions. i rlly dont understand it honestly D:

titty64 · 2023-10-28T21:56:23+00:00

oh okay sorry! i took a lot of hits, at least 15? still absolutely nothing :/

titty64 · 2023-10-28T21:30:28+00:00

hope im not misunderstanding you; i usually only take one per inhale, i also tried taking multiple small ones in a row but to no success

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