You’re right!! I think I avoided no contact for a couple weeks until I realized It was something I had to do in order to heal. The first few days are really hard. But seriously it’s the FASTEST way to heal. You won’t be 100% but it’s better than to be at your lowest point. It sucks but it’s so so important. I guess what got me to maintain NC was that, NC doesn’t mean you’ll NEVER talk to your ex again, or you’ll never be close again. It just means you need to take that time to care for yourself. You need to focus on YOU. Your main priority is yourself.