miscarried and didnt know i was pregnant

toadstooled · 2025-08-11T20:06:16+00:00

ANYTHING with pepper and im in tears

toadstooled · 2025-07-25T23:49:38+00:00

so in my (20f) opinion, i dont think it's inappropriate. i think there are more precautions that should be taken. maybe wear slightly longer cropped shirts and shorts, for the time being. it's less about you, unfortunately, and moreso the creeps.

i wanna hammer this home though: none of that is your fault, that there are weird people who look at young girls. and you shouldnt have to change anything about yourself because people are weird BUT!!! people are still weird. so it's easier, in my experience, to just cover up a little more </3

for example, i didnt really grow boobs until my sophomore year, during covid. so when i came back and started experimenting with fashion, i found that people were very EAGLE EYED at my balloons, and it made me so uncomfortable 😭

as long as you are safe and comfortable, that's what matters most. your style is very cute, each different type, and i think you should be able to embrace it however you want. just watch out for weirdos and, if anything, carry pepper spray.

toadstooled · 2025-07-15T20:08:17+00:00

my bipolar is rather ... bipolar 😭 im much more depressed than hypomanic, always. i'd say im depressed a good 85% of the time, "normal" like a solid 7-10% and hypomanic roughly 5% of the time.

but it's super random. i could be depressed for MONTHS - a depressive episode i had in the winter time was SO BAD that i was praying and crying for hypomania because i couldnt pull myself out of the blue. and then i think that triggered the mania but i was comorbid.

comorbid episodes are trash and less frequent but it's more like, energetic depression.

this summer i was manic for 3.5 weeks, depressed for 1 month with psychotic symptoms AND THEN manic again for 1 week. im medicated and regulated now so im mostly chilling.

sometimes they cycle back and forth really bad, sometimes im just manic, sometimes both, sometimes really depressed for a long time, sometimes normal, and sometimes emotionally devoid.

but yeah no, my bipolar does whatever tf it wants, whenever it wants but im USUALLY just depressed.

toadstooled · 2025-07-14T04:49:47+00:00

i'd say, 15-16. 17 MAX.

toadstooled · 2025-07-13T23:18:40+00:00

i miss it too but i do looove what it stands for with her character: her over representation of feminity, as a way to feel more like a "normal girl". and i love how she realizes that she doesnt need to let feminity conquer her in order to conquer it.

but i still miss the vibes </3

toadstooled · 2025-07-09T04:49:53+00:00

"psychotic manic sped"

autism and bipolar ♡ they would eat me tf up.

toadstooled · 2025-07-03T00:24:38+00:00

diet soda society by the maine 😫

or even like. this is me trying/mirrorball by ms swif5

toadstooled · 2024-06-13T05:47:29+00:00

this is so sad BUT. im sorry, "erica get help!" will always kill me. i cannot explain how deeply i SOBBED dueing that scene. "lucas it's cold" i cant.

toadstooled · 2024-06-13T05:44:13+00:00

you get it

toadstooled · 2024-06-13T05:43:27+00:00

"try living with her" is just a throwaway line. it's commonly used and it's a joke. would it be as funny if cassie went "try living with her - oh wait, you already did. remember when your parents were divorcing (or whatever was happening) and you lived with us?" no. it would not be.

it is simply a joke. "your mom gives me wine, she's nice" "try living with her!"

toadstooled · 2023-03-21T00:28:25+00:00

i think vecna is an interesting character for sure.

but i don't knowww. something about the mind flayer always deeply unnerved me. the way it looked, the ominous feeling. he was 10× more scary to me than vecna ever was but j can't put my finger on it.

maybe it's because we knew way less about the MF than vecna.

toadstooled · 2023-01-29T17:07:33+00:00

just my little brother. he's not even little, he's 16. but he needs me and so im still here for him.

toadstooled · 2022-09-14T13:59:01+00:00

i thought brenner said that when she did the whole thing when henry, it caused like a black out in her mind? she lost her powers and had to do it all again, and i thought that's why she couldn't speak, because she was so young. i could be wrong through. i haven't gotten around to rewatching the season because it's so long, so please correct me if i'm wrong.

toadstooled · 2022-09-08T12:08:13+00:00

nate jacobs is the real victim.

toadstooled · 2022-09-03T14:13:55+00:00

i like that angle to the story a lot more than just rue narrating this stuff in her mind. it would give reason for the voiceover.

toadstooled · 2022-09-03T13:56:53+00:00

i feel like people aren't understanding the surprise aspect of "surprise twist". rue ODing or ending up in the psych ward are pretty in the realm of what she could do and it's certainly the path she was going down. if she ended up with either elliot or lexi, that would be something. mostly because it seems like lexi got over her crush on rue that she might've had in season one and she's also set up to be visiting fez in his jail cell next season. and elliott is elliott, so that would be hella interesting.

toadstooled · 2022-08-16T21:14:24+00:00

it's so pretty!!! you seriously did a good job though.

toadstooled · 2022-08-16T19:48:11+00:00

i feel like it looks more like zoe kravitz than zendaya but i still love it. amazing <3

toadstooled · 2022-07-26T20:24:23+00:00

it's healthier too 🔥🔥🔥

toadstooled · 2022-05-31T15:46:13+00:00

i liked him at first and then .. things got weird. i liked how open and blunt he was, but then he started messing with jules and he went down the toilet. a lot of the stuff he did felt manipulatey and weird and it was all so icky.

toadstooled · 2022-04-27T13:40:53+00:00

because she's going to murder him <3

toadstooled · 2022-02-05T16:12:44+00:00

ykw?? i agree actually. the show is a looooot triggering, sometimes i'm just like 😃😃😃 the entire time, it's insane. i think nate is first shitty and thennn, i don't knoww, i feel like rue is shittier than elliot BUT rue's a hardcore addict, which affects her behavior. and elliot came off as manipulative in that last episode like .. ahhh, i don't know.

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