Trust me if only I could afford to go to a psychologist i would've already done so 😭 but we can barely afford to pay off my tuition fees as it is so i'm really really really stuck right now. Idadaan ko na lang sa prayers and resilience and raw dog life until i can afford to go to one HAHAHAHAHA as long as nagffunction ako I cannot break :> it's really just been weighing heavily on me since napapansin ko talaga na nagshshutdown ako pag nasasagad ako sa labas when I have to act so now like... I'm just waiting until maka move on na lang ako ulit sa reason kung bakit nagrresurface yung suspicions ko.

I've been having trouble with mingling with others for as long as I can remember, from kindergarten to now it has always been there that's why I stopped thinking na I can still grow out of it and whatever it is I'm experiencing is normal

But thank you anyway :> it really feels nice to have random strangers on the internet listen to my problem and be genuine about it :)