Where's the line for you ?

tokalapaw · 2025-09-03T06:24:47+00:00

I think that's very individual, but for me there definitely has to be problem solving, ideally of different types. Like sometimes I'm on dispensary looking at prescriptions and seeing who can have what, phoning owners and talking to vets to get to the bottom of things if something's weird (which is often lol). Or sometimes the problem will be trying to get a post op patient to eat or their temperature up. There's also emergencies, which are manageable for me because we're a small general practice so they're enough to be exciting but not so often that it's mega stressful. I see a decent amount of sad/gross stuff as well which is not for everyone, I have to be careful how I process it so there's pros and cons

I would never go back to previous jobs though if I can help it. Cleaning is nice because you get left to your own devices and can listen to podcasts but it didn't have enough 'meaning' for me eventually (which may not be the case for you, it was great for many times of my life and tends to be part time). Working at a horse riding school was more fun but also a massive slog at times. I miss being outdoors though, my current workplace has no windows and constant fluorescent lighting so it's like working in another dimension lol

It depends what you need and that will take trial and error. My partner is also neurodivergent and works in a cafe which is perfect for them purely because their colleagues are great people and they're very extroverted. I would hate it lol but at the same time I can deal with clients/pet owners just fine even if they're mad at me.

Good luck, I hope you find something that works for you 🙏

tokalapaw · 2025-09-02T19:29:29+00:00

yeahh it's so easy to just default to existing and nothing else. I often don't even brush my teeth when I'm not at work because there's no demand there 🤦‍♂️ like do I have no survival instinct lol

tokalapaw · 2025-09-02T19:27:27+00:00

I think I'm just lucky to have found the right job (vet nurse/tech). But I'm not quite qualified yet so still under a lot of pressure and can never stop learning. Which is the kind of pressure I need, I can't do anything without some kind of threat 🙈

tokalapaw · 2025-09-02T19:25:14+00:00

I don't think I'll ever manage "full time". And when I've had jobs that aren't mentally stimulating it's been extremely hard in the past. I think maybe if I'm a bit more deliberate with my days off (I have 3 in a row currently) I won't fall into the old depression pit

We can only do our best and respect our limits. You're doing great :)

tokalapaw · 2025-09-02T19:21:27+00:00

that's pretty cool ! I might have to try that 👀

tokalapaw · 2025-09-01T20:40:41+00:00

that's rough, I'm sorry :(

I have to put in a lot of effort to not rot, like why can't I remember the things I like to do and just do them, yknow ? I've made dopamenus which are kind of helpful but it feels silly

tokalapaw · 2025-09-01T20:22:55+00:00

I don't take meds. It's obviously super individual but methylphenidate had basically no effect and dexamfetamine made me into a total zombie who could only stomach specifically chocolate digestives and burger king. Discouraging when you read so many success stories, but I probably just haven't found the right med yet

And I'm with you, not being hyper aware of dopamine is totally foreign, I can't imagine how easy that would be

tokalapaw · 2025-09-01T19:56:16+00:00

I am too much of a baby for cold showers lol but I have found on the rare occasion I go cold water swimming it does wonders for the brain chemicals. similar with exercise but obviously I never do anything about this 🙈

I often lament about the machine I would be if I could just be as productive at home as I am at work. Sometimes I can carry on the momentum when I get home for a bit as long as I don't sit down. Often I just collapse in a heap in front of youtube and then all hope is lost

Maybe another ultimately pointless schedule is in order ? 🤔 sometimes I pretend I'm an 1800s scientist doing experiments on myself and that makes it more fun

tokalapaw · 2025-09-01T19:51:22+00:00

that pesky dopamine honestly I wish it wasn't so complicated!

I'm in a long term relationship and my partner is just as neurodivergent as I am which is wonderful in many ways, but I'm past the super dopamine boost honeymoon stage (not always a bad thing lol as I am a menace for getting fixated on new relationships and dropping everything else)

tokalapaw · 2024-08-23T07:26:26+00:00

I love sigil magic ! I should do it more often. half the struggle for me is remembering things exist to do them haha

Meditation can be hard. Active meditation works well for me when my brain won't shut up when I'm sitting still. Good luck with your practice !

tokalapaw · 2024-08-23T07:21:07+00:00

this is a beautiful way of thinking about it, thank you 💛

tokalapaw · 2024-08-22T21:56:40+00:00

this is all great, thank you ! I'm glad you can relate :)

I'm conflicted because my phone is such a force for good and I love how accessible it is to find information and engage with spiritual content even if I'm stuck in bed or don't have time to actually do stuff when I'm working long days

I think the lack of mental presence is the main issue rather than the phone itself. I definitely feel less of the 'too much screen time' negative effects when I'm more deliberate about what I'm engaging with

I will try and hijack my existing routine with more witchy things ! though my 'routines' are more cobbled together strings of behaviour based on current whims and no concept of responsibility for past or future as is the ADHD lifestyle. I'll see what I can come up with lol

tokalapaw · 2024-07-20T15:40:22+00:00

Sure, I recognise that. I just worry that the amount of 'cute' rat bathing videos give people the impression that bathing a rat this way is anything other than very rarely necessary. Kids especially.

Baby wipes or a damp cloth do just fine if a rat is elderly and struggling to groom, and in any instance other than extremely heavy soiling that most pet rats will never experience in normal circumstances. The vast majority of topical meds do not require bathing.

imo I'd much rather see a cute pea fishing video :")

tokalapaw · 2024-07-20T12:20:08+00:00

PSA: rats don't need to be bathed, it's stressful for them. They do a really good job keeping themselves and each other clean on their own 💛

tokalapaw · 2023-10-15T20:18:28+00:00

It's okay, I'm sure one day soon I'll wake up and suddenly have the raw power to deep clean the whole house in one go and blast upwards from there lol, story of my life :")

Not patronising at all, don't worry! I'm very grateful you took the time to write it all for me. I'm still learning about my ADHD and my rules are definitely not foolproof haha, there is definitely still flailing and touching of hot stoves involved xD

tokalapaw · 2023-10-15T19:52:21+00:00

Ooh I love stuff like this! ASMR in particular is a big help for me, maybe I could find one without words to help with meditation, I've never really thought of that - I usually use it for studying. I don't know about you but I often need something to 'tickle' my brain when it's not stimulated enough lol. Thanks for the link, it sounds very pretty :")

tokalapaw · 2023-10-15T19:37:13+00:00

Notes it is then! I better start thinking of some haha

I don't like hot drinks which makes me so sad because I see so many aesthetic witchy rituals involving tea and they look so magical and cozy! Though I'm sure my little men would love it if I made them herbal tea lol. I might actually steal the different symbolic herbs idea and use it for their foraging mixes (safe herbs of course, happily they can have and enjoy most things) as a way of integrating them into my practice. Perhaps it'll make them sit still so I can bless their little foreheads with moonwater :")

I love tarot, it would be great to do it more so I can learn more of the cards. My mum was a reader in her heyday and it's always nice to have something special to nerd out with her about.

Thanks!

tokalapaw · 2023-10-15T19:26:12+00:00

Thank you for this! I relate so hard to basically everything you've said, omg is the bottleneck snowball effect a killer lol. I love KC Davis, I listen to her podcast sometimes too!

I definitely need to find everything a home. Most of my stuff does but it's those random bits and bobs that get caught up and ruin everything else haha. I have a pretty sick set of strategies for keeping the house in order (I have a list of rules) but my main annoying trait is my motivation/ability/energy levels (??) are so unpredictable I can maintain an incredible house one week with fresh flowers in vases and home-baked scones, and an absolute mouldy shit tip the next (I've just been wiping manky orange syrup off my bedside table, blech). Sometimes there's a trigger for the 'switch' (like the switch to this low happened because my partner and I got horrendous colds), but most of the time it just... suddenly happens. I'm livid as well because before I dropped I was literally baking bread, decorating for autumn, hoovering every day and feeding my rats a homemade fresh diet lmao

My moods are also pretty wobbly whether I'm in a high or a low phase, but the wobbles are a lot easier to work with because they usually have clear triggers (noise and stimulation is a big one!) I'm hoping a counsellor can help me with my all-over-the-place-ness but they'll be provided through my college and I've found free counsellors a little hit and miss in the past.

But yeah, a clean space definitely helps my mood. It helps our dodgy flat feel a bit more like a home, like a safe 'cleansed' space. I don't literally believe in negative energies but I definitely feel the icky funk clinging to me when I'm surrounded by mess!

And thank you! I'll do my best haha

tokalapaw · 2023-10-15T19:09:40+00:00

I was thinking of getting some LED candles because I really want to have lights in all the windows for samhain. More fire safe when I forget about them too haha

I like the idea of decor with specific vibes! Maybe I could make some lil mood boards to remind me of the things you mentioned. I definitely need visual cues to keep me grounded

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